i just want to be left alone

[chopperjr1]

I just turned 18 and am a senior in high school.

I'm 5 credits away from graduation and have to do an online class that I mentally cannot do, so I paid a good friend to do it. My parents found out and won't leave me alone. They've taken away my computer which is the only thing I own that means anything to me and my mom told my dad and now my weekend was stripped from me too. My parents are divorced and my father is on the edge of another divorce. I've told them time and time again just to leave me along and let me handle it, I can and have everything works out. I have no reason to be home and everything keeps getting worse. I have no job, no chance and college and no place where I can be myself like I could online with my friends. I'm condemned and because they're my parents they feel they have to be there and do something. I can't take it anymore, I just want to run away. I have 230 dollars in my pocket and a bank account my father won't give to me. Im sick of everything and everytime I get out of my depression, everything gets worse.

[chopperjr1]

I just want it to stop, I want to be happy again, my parents think im some prodigy but they're wrong. I've thought of a hundred ways I could tie the noose made from computer wire to my ceiling fan, but I could never do it. Help me please.

[anyone50]

I'm glad your not actually considering a a permenant souloution to a tempory problem so many have gone that way and it breaks my heart when i hear about it. I'll skip the advise of sitting down with your parents and trying to talk things out since it sounds like they arn't listening. One thing you do have going for you is your now 18 and in control of your life and I know that isn't the answer since you live in their house. So many parents feel my house my rules and no arguments and this sounds like where you live.

There is help out there depending on where you live and living in a larger city ussually means there are more places to go so I would look for an alternative place to live now that your 18 away from controlling parents thru any self help organizations in your community.
One that comes to mind is The Salvation Army I know they provide a stepping stone for those who want to better their lives.

That being said you can't hold your parents 100 percent responsible for whats going on because they think they are doing whats right. Your reference to your on line friends is maybe a clue and it appears you don't have many friends in the real world If this is the case you need to get away from the computer for awhile and interact with people in a more face to face world.

About the money situation i'm not sure but now that your 18 do you still need your fathers permission to axcess the account even if it's in both your names I believe once your 18 you become an equal partner on the account. My last bit of advise is that there is always an alternative souloution to every problem and the bottom line is how bad do you want it and how far are you willing to go to make it happen.

[chopperjr1]

it just kills me that they raise me to be responsible for myself and when I take actions on my problems, everything im doing is wrong. Gotta laugh right now, had another bad day bowling. You can tell its a bad week by the averages I bowl. I'm just so tired recently, sleep, lots of sleep sounds good.

[xarvon1412]

Exactly, that's all that parents do. They tell you, "You're a man now, you can make decisions for yourself." and then when you try it's always, "No that's wrong, let me do it." I think everybody on this website knows how you feel. I sure as hell know I do. Don't worry though, after awhile they do ease up. I know that you're feeling down and you want to commit suicide because of how your parents are treating you and now you're friendless without your computer, but you will get through it. Also, you'll get your computer back eventually. Sleep is usually a good thing, take advantage of the fact that you can sleep, it's not something that everyone here can do.