Im depressed

[dedee]

I pretty sure im depressed
I feel worthless, like im never going to accomplish anything. Lately I havent felt like eating, I ca barely sleep, my family is going through a really hard financial situation andi can never get anything i want because we dont have money. My friends go out and have fun andi can never go. I try todo something differentwith my life but Im so unmotivated that its hopeless. I dont have anyone to talk about my worries and about how inferior i feel. The few times I've tried to talk to my mom she just scoffs and says I need to stop being stupid that im too old for that. My cousins step son committed suicide and my mom said that he just went crazy because of all the shit in his life and he didnt think of what he was doing. I'm scared that one day I'll lose my mind and kill myself without knowing. My bestfriend is going through a hard timetoo, her mom is too demanding and shes the only person i can talk to but she lives in another country andI can't afford calling her, and talking through emails is not the same... I just dont know what to do.. On top of all that I got rejected to my top choice college and i feel like Im just not good enough.

[xarvon1412]

I don't think that you're depressed, I think that you're sad. Depressed and sad are very different and they hold a person very differently. Now, I'm not a professional and I don't know exactly how you're feeling, but I'm just giving my opinion. I think that this rough time has brought you down and you're feeling a lot of pressure right now, especially with nobody to talk to and your college and everything. Don't worry, you won't just go crazy one day and kill yourself, it's an irrational thought sure, but you don't just go crazy and it happens. If this gets any worse, and you start feeling worse, like you might kill yourself, due to you not wanting to deal with life anymore, then tell somebody immediately. If you mention suicide, they tend to listen. Also, if you start wanting to self harm then you need to tell somebody as well. Both of those are serious, and are both hard to deal with. Now to your problem, I'm really sorry that you're under so much pressure right now. Is there another college that you can apply to that would be just as nice as the one that you weren't accepted into? Also, maybe you can find somebody that's closer than your other friend? I know that you probably don't want to confide in anybody else, but I think that you have to find somebody closer and somebody that you can talk to at anytime, not just over the internet. I'm really sorry that your life has been hard recently, and maybe for some time. I hope that it starts to get better for you soon :) If you ever need somebody to talk to, wall me and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.

[jayyy-lmao]

Talk to someone. You might be depressed, you might not.
Talk to anyone. Doesn't have to be a professional.

[anyone50]

I'm not sure if you have whats referred to as clinical depression or that your sadness is the by product of all the shit that’s going on around you, that would be for a professional to determine. I think kids take on as much of the anxiety as parents do when money is tight and you can't do the things your friends do because of it.

If you can't talk to your mom about this try to find someone else that you trust preferable an adult like a teacher from school or your guidance counselor. I don't believe suicide is ever accidental is usually thought out and planned long before it happens so your moms explanation he went crazy is just her way of not wanting to deal with it on an emotional level. Don't worry about doing it without knowing, It always that everyone else doesn’t know about it even though there are so many clues and hints people see afterwards.

Oh and by the way I'm sure the reason you weren't accepted by that college has nothing to do with you not being good enough. College admissions are more of a numbers game and every college has their own formula. Just apply to several and you will be accepted as long as you have a decent GPA which in most cases is 3.0 for the better universities and 2.5 for Comm. Colleges which is always an alternative for your first 2 years and then it's a lot easier to transfer to a 4 yr college