I feel like a crappy friend, and person

[ItsNotOver777]

And I'm starting to get sick of it. Everday I go to school, "Todays the day I turn it around"

I end up being the guy who always jokes around and shit.

The guy no one ever takes serious, AGAIN, I try not to joke constantly and all this other stuff, even when everyones in a bad modd I can't help it, I just constantly act like a jackass and don't want to.

And all this B.S


Everyone thinks I'm such a happy person who cna never be taken seriously and all this crap.

Deep down

I'm depressed
I'm sensative
I hate the way I am
I wish I could change

I want people to know how I feel

But I also don't want them to know..

Idk anymore..

I kinda wanta just break out and cry and tell everyone.

When in reality

I can't cry, its not that I don't want to, I'v just never been able to.

And I don't have the guts to tell anyone, I don't want people feeling bad for me.

[Hyper]

I get that sometimes.. Except I control it..

Thats all to it of course ''curing'' your depression would remove it problably or make it much easier to control

[mixedupfool]

i know how you feel,
it happened to me when i was in jr. high
itll blow over after a while,
try not to let it get to you thta much and youll be fine

[Everglow]

don't feel too bad. it's all about figuring yourself out. settle down with joking around and acting wildly. focus more on what you want to be. not with what other people see you as. if you keep that in mind, you’ll be able to change soon enough :)

[ItsNotOver777]

Thanks so much guys.

goin to school tomarrow with that in mind :D

[crimson]

Yeh I get that sometimes too,

just slowly go to what you want to be..

[Star_boi]

I gt tht alot i put on a happy front but its fake :(

[oscaryu1]

And I'm starting to get sick of it. Everday I go to school, "Todays the day I turn it around"

I end up being the guy who always jokes around and shit.

The guy no one ever takes serious, AGAIN, I try not to joke constantly and all this other stuff, even when everyones in a bad modd I can't help it, I just constantly act like a jackass and don't want to.

And all this B.S


Everyone thinks I'm such a happy person who cna never be taken seriously and all this crap.

Deep down

I'm depressed
I'm sensative
I hate the way I am
I wish I could change

I want people to know how I feel

But I also don't want them to know..

Idk anymore..

I kinda wanta just break out and cry and tell everyone.

When in reality

I can't cry, its not that I don't want to, I'v just never been able to.

And I don't have the guts to tell anyone, I don't want people feeling bad for me.

1 thing. Earn some friends. No seriously. First day, same as you. Everything. I can't cry, I'm the smallest, I hate my life. Being in an huge community only makes it worse. 2nd day. around 50 friends.

Might sound harsh, but just shut the heck up. Don't talk. They'll come to you. You can change. Just shutup and make good grades. We'll see the one who's laughin when I see you at MIT...

[dem.re.cmd.exe]

Everyone thinks I'm such a happy person who cna never be taken seriously and all this crap.

Deep down

I'm depressed
I'm sensative
I hate the way I am
I wish I could change



I was and still am that person and it really ate away at me. That and many other factors made me try to commit suicide. I wish I could change too, but even after the attempted suicide people still treated me like the same happy cheerful wonderful person... I understand, but as far as advice... just have one or two days every once and a while where you really don't joke around. Just be upfront and say "I'm not going to fool arouond today" or you can make that more convincing and replace the fool with another word, but I won't go there... Good luck.