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February 16th, 2013, 07:10 PM
I'm scared. It's not like this is anything new but i'v recently been released from counselling, and i'm meant to be getting better. It's getting bad again, i'm cutting more, and i can't hide it either as my mum's been taking me to multiple prom fittings and she keeps asking why my scars have gotten so much more noticeable recently ( i put makeup over them). I don't want to eat anymore, at all, i feel sick thinking about it. And when i do try i eat, i eat to much and i feel so guilty and sick.
But i'm used to all this. It's mainly, i'v been depressed for so long, and now i'm so emotional. All i wan't to do is scream and cry. I can't stop myself. I'm on the edge of a breakdown all the time, and last time i had a break down i usually ended in hospital. I no longer know what to do. I just wan't to die, all the time. Is that bad? I know what i'd do as well, it's so easy. I'm sorry, i just don't know what to do anymore, and i cant even stop apologising, which sounds stupid. It just hurts. And i don't want to go back. Any help?
But i'm used to all this. It's mainly, i'v been depressed for so long, and now i'm so emotional. All i wan't to do is scream and cry. I can't stop myself. I'm on the edge of a breakdown all the time, and last time i had a break down i usually ended in hospital. I no longer know what to do. I just wan't to die, all the time. Is that bad? I know what i'd do as well, it's so easy. I'm sorry, i just don't know what to do anymore, and i cant even stop apologising, which sounds stupid. It just hurts. And i don't want to go back. Any help?