How do I stop from doing it again?

[ReginaGeorge]

I made a stupid decision tonight.

I've been self harming for around four years, give or take. After that first cut, I couldn't really not do it. Within the last year, I started smoking as self-harm in there somewhere, and it's been quite a few months, but after that first one, I can't not do that either (I'm not addicted to the nicotine, I don't smoke regularly enough for it get a hold). Then I tried cutting on my arms for the first time, and that was recent, and had one cutting 'session' since then, which then included my arms again.

Basically the pattern is once I try it, I generally can't not do it.

Tonight I stupidly, knowing this pattern, tried burning myself. So now I'm worried that I won't be able to not do it because of the pattern. What worries me more is I don't really want to stop doing it now.

It's on my arms where I can't hide it. I highly doubt it will blister, but it will leave a mark.

So, I don't know what to do.

Any advice?

[NeuroTiger]

Relax dear...what's troubling you?

[xXl0sth0peXx]

Get rid of what you would use to burn yourself. Throw it away or give it to someone or hide it or whatever. It doesn't matter what you do with it, just get it out. When I threw out anything I'd use, it was that much easier not to do it.

Second is to connect with your feelings and find out why you feel the urge to do it.

[xarvon1412]

I would suggest talking to somebody about it. Somebody who can stop you from doing it. You need somebody that can help you to stop. We can try, but there's only so much that we can do over the internet. Just get out of that mind set, maybe now because you want to not do it anymore you'll be able not to do it. I mean, the reason that you get stuck doing something sounds like it's because you want to do it, for what ever reasons. Now, it sounds like you genuinely don't want to and you want to stop. I can't say for sure, but that will hopefully contribute to you stopping.

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

Burning will scare you away if you experienced pain that was too much for you.