Why am I down?

[Koffing]

Why am I down. I don't know what it is. I have love from my family, I have good school grades, I have everything I need, and yet I feel down every evening. Like today, I had a great day with friends, and now in my room I feel something inside me that feels down and sad.

Why?
- Is it because sport sucks lately, and I want to stop with playing it?
- Is it because i still haven't told my friends I'm Bi, although I fully accept myself, but I yet am not confortable with it?

I just don't know what it is, and it is driving me mad and I get worse by the day, I feel it...

Hope you can help me with it, as it is getting worse lately, and I don't want to upset my parents or family, as they will all start to worry to much and won't leave me alone with it...

[Desuetude]

We can't tell you what's wrong but maybe if you give us a few more details about how you're feeling and the kinds of thoughts you're having we might be able to help a little and find you some outlets that might do you some good.

Why are you finding that sports suck? Are people expecting you to carry on with them and do well? Do you think they'd be disappointed if you quit?

It's great that you've accepted that you're bi, that's always the first step. Sometimes it takes a bit of time to come out to other people. Are you scared of how they'll react? Do you know if they're homophobic or do you think they'd be accepting of you if they knew?

To me it sounds like you're under quite a bit of pressure and it's stress that's causing you to feel like this. Although if you answer the questions and give us a little bit more of an idea as to what exactly you're feeling we might be able to give you some ways of overcoming this.

[Koffing]

The thing with sport is that my team were I am in now just sucks... All old like 40 years old because there weren't enough young people for a younger team. I'm not a very out going to I haven't been able to make friends with them, and the friends I had all left the team because they didn't like it. I like the sport, but because if the team I am not going to trainings, only to actual games...

My friends will accept me for being bi I am 99% sure, but I'm scared that I can't fool around and make jokes with them. I'm just so scared that everything will change and that I am even more lonely than I am sometimes...

[Desuetude]

Is there another team you could try out for? Surely that's not the only one in your area? If you're not enjoying it anymore then you shouldn't force yourself to go. If you can find a different team or even another sport that you could take up then that's better than participating in something that you no longer care for, surely. Maybe you should search around because I understand that the people you play with make all the difference and if you're not enjoying it now it's unlikely that it'll change in the near future unless they completely revamp the team which is unlikely to happen if not enough young people want to join.

That's great that you're confident that your friends will accept you. Why would you not be able to fool around? Your sexuality shouldn't prevent you from making jokes. When you tell them explain to them that they shouldn't treat you differently and that you don't want things to be awkward. If you tell them then they'll be more likely to understand.

[Koffing]

There aren't any sport teams in my area that practice the same sport, so that isn't an option unfortunately.

And I am just worried that my friends will be like okay.... If I do something wierd or something.

But why am I feeling so bad inside? Is it because of this, or what is my problem?

[xarvon1412]

I don't know, I feel your pain though, I'm the same way. I can't tell you for sure whether or not you're depressed, I'm not a professional yet, but I can say that maybe you just need somebody to talk to. I'm not talking counseling or therapy, but maybe a friend or something? Just tell them how you've been feeling. I'd also start out by telling your friends slowly that you're bi. Start out by telling your closest friend, the one who you trust the most. Don't worry too much though, if you're 99% sure, then there's not much to worry about. Just go for it, and it probably will be awkward at first, but they'll get used to it.

[Koffing]

Thanks for the reaction. I will try to tell a friend soon, and I'll just see how thing go from that I guess...