not sure why i'm posting this

[mynameistaken]

I feel like i need to write this somewhere so why not here, I have come close to comitting suicide several times, once with poison, the rest by hanging.. which is rather uncreative. I give off the appearance of a very overconfident person, I always laugh and smile and joke but I haven't actually talked to anyone about my feelings. I feel that I have closed off myself from everyone for so long that it is too late to open up because people generally come to me when they feel unstable because I come off as so happy and i lend a hand (by being a hypocrit), I just feel that it would catch people offguard and do more harm than good if i actually was myself.....I guess i just answered why im posting this so feel free to pipe in or move this to a different thread.

[xarvon1412]

Heh, I get what you mean. I'm the exact same way. Right now, I'm trying to give you advice, when I'm so lost myself that I don't know what I'm doing. Regardless, it's helping you guys that gets me to smile. It's helping you guys. Whenever I stop someone from cutting, suicide, hurting, running away, crying, etc. I feel great. I don't know, I hurt a lot. However, I have to keep up this facade so that I can help others. Don't worry though, if you ever need somebody to talk to, or to vent to, or if you need a helping hand, post on my wall, I'll get back to you as soon as I can :)

[LikeAJay]

I think you should tell the people you trust. Who you love. I think that everyone has thought about it. I think people that gone through it will unserstand it too.

[turtle guy]

as someone who is struggling, i have learned from my mistakes. just like always Move along. talk to someone you care about alot, when i tell people my problems it feels really good. just tell someone, they will listen...

[Eclipsical]

If you fail at suicide it means youre doing something right...if that makes sense.

You really don't want to end it but you're stuck.

There's a reason for things to (not)work.

But stop trying to be the supportive friend. Maybe that's really effecting you cuz it's making you overthink you're own issues possibly.