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VictoriaGotaSecret
February 14th, 2013, 05:30 PM
I just want to end my pain and be gone, but I'm so afraid that if I do it I will end up in the hospital instead.

I don't want tips but I really can't get suicide off my mind.
Perfect_Insanity
February 14th, 2013, 05:52 PM
Please don't kill yourself! If not for your friends and family, then for us. You are a great person, and there's so much more you deserve to do. Maybe you could try doing something creative instead? (ugh, cliche comment) I don't know what you mean by 'leaving you tips' (tips to off yourself, or tips to distract yourself) You deserve to at least show the people who've hurt you that you're stronger than them.
jayyy-lmao
February 14th, 2013, 05:53 PM
Calm down. Take a few deep breaths. Talk to someone. I have been having suicidal thoughts also. And I know it's scary. But you just don't do it.
VictoriaGotaSecret
February 14th, 2013, 07:04 PM
Please don't kill yourself! If not for your friends and family, then for us. You are a great person, and there's so much more you deserve to do. Maybe you could try doing something creative instead? (ugh, cliche comment) I don't know what you mean by 'leaving you tips' (tips to off yourself, or tips to distract yourself) You deserve to at least show the people who've hurt you that you're stronger than them.

Oh sorry, I meant that I'm not asking for tips on doing it(because of the mods potentially seeing it and thinking I'm asking for them) even though I know no one on here would
xarvon1412
February 14th, 2013, 07:41 PM
Hey, don't :) Listen, I know I'm not the best person to get advice from right now. I'm uh, contemplating it myself, but you shouldn't. I know that right now is hard, and it sucks I'm sure, but you can't. I know, there may not be a lot of people right now that you think care, but there are a lot. Ways to take your mind off of it? Think about all of the things that you enjoy doing, such as reading, or walking, or hanging out with your friends. Listen, you're worth the effort. Okay? Don't do yourself in, you are better than that. You are more than that. You are great, you are amazing. To have come this far in life, just shows that you are fantastic. You deserve the life that you have, don't throw it away. After all, it can't be terrible forever, right?
VictoriaGotaSecret
February 14th, 2013, 10:14 PM
Hey, don't :) Listen, I know I'm not the best person to get advice from right now. I'm uh, contemplating it myself, but you shouldn't. I know that right now is hard, and it sucks I'm sure, but you can't. I know, there may not be a lot of people right now that you think care, but there are a lot. Ways to take your mind off of it? Think about all of the things that you enjoy doing, such as reading, or walking, or hanging out with your friends. Listen, you're worth the effort. Okay? Don't do yourself in, you are better than that. You are more than that. You are great, you are amazing. To have come this far in life, just shows that you are fantastic. You deserve the life that you have, don't throw it away. After all, it can't be terrible forever, right?

We are all in some ways a hypocrite when we talk about some things one here. Please I'd rather you stay than me, you are more worth it than me and you even more for trying to help me. And I'm sorry to be such a downer but my life is hell and this is my only way out...
Perfect_Insanity
February 14th, 2013, 10:29 PM
I wish we could all live, and be happy. At least know I love all of you. I know you might not think so, but you deserve to live.
xarvon1412
February 14th, 2013, 11:34 PM
We are all in some ways a hypocrite when we talk about some things one here. Please I'd rather you stay than me, you are more worth it than me and you even more for trying to help me. And I'm sorry to be such a downer but my life is hell and this is my only way out...

Yeah...I understand. It's not your only way out, don't say that. I know right now it may seem like it, but it's not, I swear.
VictoriaGotaSecret
February 14th, 2013, 11:55 PM
Yeah...I understand. It's not your only way out, don't say that. I know right now it may seem like it, but it's not, I swear.

What other option do I have?
xarvon1412
February 15th, 2013, 12:10 AM
What other option do I have?

You can live. I know that it's hard, God knows that I know. However you can do it. I know that it's hard, but you have to live. You have to prove that you can do it. I mean, you don't have to, but you don't you want to? Don't you want to prove to the work that you are better than it? Better than what's putting you down? Because you can. I know that you can. You've gone this long, you can make it the rest of the way. So please don't give up. This is not your only option, you can live, you can make it.
VictoriaGotaSecret
February 15th, 2013, 12:28 AM
You can live. I know that it's hard, God knows that I know. However you can do it. I know that it's hard, but you have to live. You have to prove that you can do it. I mean, you don't have to, but you don't you want to? Don't you want to prove to the work that you are better than it? Better than what's putting you down? Because you can. I know that you can. You've gone this long, you can make it the rest of the way. So please don't give up. This is not your only option, you can live, you can make it.

I tried for so long to beat depression and the fact I want/ed to die, but i dont have that motivation anymore. I used to tell myself that I can't let myself die until I have SRS, that was my goal, to at least make it there but I can't anymore.
xarvon1412
February 15th, 2013, 12:40 AM
I tried for so long to beat depression and the fact I want/ed to die, but i dont have that motivation anymore. I used to tell myself that I can't let myself die until I have SRS, that was my goal, to at least make it there but I can't anymore.

You can get that motivation. I don't know what SRS is, sorry, but I'm sure that you can get it. I know, motivation is hard to come by, but you can do it. You can't give up after doing all of this. Do you really want to let them win? Let everything and everyone that's put you down be right that you can't do it? You can't let them win, you can't let life beat you down. You can fight it, you can fight against it. You can beat depression, screw depression, it sucks. You can't let it win, it will lose. You can make it lose, you can beat it. I would suggest you talk to somebody, somebody close to you. Heck, you can even talk to me if you can't find anybody else. If not me, you can talk to your friends, parents, and you could even find a counselor. I know, you probably don't want a counselor or a therapist, but they do help. Please, again, if you can't find anyone to talk to, I'll listen :)
Castle of Glass
February 15th, 2013, 02:21 AM
Look Tori, as much as you think you are alone and everyone hates you or what ever it is that is bringing you down to the level you are, remember this, there is always someone who will listen, even if that person Lives thousands of miles or kilometers away from you. I have been in your situation and still am. THIS (http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/blog.php?b=39208) is one of my main reasons of being in a similar situation. Also, you CAN rescue yourself, if you open your self to help, but not from a councilor or parent, but us, the VT Psych Ward. Post a Thread about yourself and your problem, yes i know it is very hard to do. Took me about a week to write my thread and about 2 weeks to get my entire blog done. But stick with it. People will help you. If you want to talk about anything, just PM me and I will help you anyway i can.

~Niilo789