Depressed and stressed...

[Human]

I'm really stressed right now... with so many exams coming up and I just feel unwanted sometimes. I feel sometimes like if there was a gun in front of me, I would just pick it up and end it all. I don't know why I'm feeling like this either, maybe just being a teen or something. I had a dream where I killed myself too... I can remember it, it was vivid and I can feel what was happening when I hung myself, I could feel the blood draining from me but I felt happy for some reason.

So yeah, a bit messed up but just wanted to vent!

[xarvon1412]

Yeah I get what you mean when you say that you just want to vent. I get that a lot as well. I also get what you mean with the exams. A lot of these exams right now determine whether or not I'm going to get the job I want. I'm sorry that it's stressful. I'm sure you're not unwanted though. Don't think like that, because I'm sure that there's somebody who wants you. It may seem like there's nobody, but there is.

[Sudds3]

I feel literally the exact same way. Stressed and like no one wants me here, ive tried killing myself twice now and ive started cutting and made myself stop. I told my friend about it and he made me talk to my counselor, so i did today and he was very helpful. He informed me that i should make an appointment with a psychiatrist that comes in every wednesday if i wanted to because it couldnt hurt. Ive told another friend of mine who is going through a rough patch but not as severe as mine. So i would suggest you start my telling someone you trust, force yourself to because you wont want to. Just pour it out onto them and they will want to help because they will be genuinely concerned. So good luck with the first step!

Feel better
-Adam

[Human]

thanks guys.
i've felt quite on the edge recently... like if anything big and negative happens i'll do something i'd regret. i keep thinking up scenarios like if my parents divorced or if we moved and i had to leave everyone behind (both would probably never happen, i'm quite lucky to have a stable family life) but i keep thinking that if these scenarios were to happen i'd rather just end it... grr