I cant do this shit anymore

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

I can't do this anymore. I can't sit here and rot away waiting for answers, waiting for change. I have been put in the middle of something that no one should have to ever experience from that day I was born. This man I'm supposed to call "dad" is abusive, he has raped my mom, he has attempted to murder me, but sadly my mom stopped him. I wish so badly that he had, thrown me harder, chocked me longer, but my mom stopped him. I know i should be thanking her for saving me but I don't feel that way. If she had let him do it he would be in prison and her and me brother could lead a happier life. I know what I want to do, but I can't but help think how much my mom will be hurt because I'm her first born, I have an attachment to her the other two can't compare to. I can't think of how much my uncle will be hurt, he is my father in my mind I hope he realizes it. With all the shit that's happened between him and my bio. father he may never get to come to the funeral when I die and he deserves to be there for everything he has done for me. He provided me with a best friend, my dog Sasha who passed when I was 11, his daughter who like a little sister and himself. I don't want to leave the few who truly love me without answers, but I just cant do this anymore. I want to be gone. I was never meant to be here and I deserve to die. My bio. father is right I'm worthless, I'm a piece of shit and I'm an asshole and I don't deserve anything.

I can't do this. I can't end this now but I can. I can't leave these last people who i'd hurt, but being here is only hurting me more. ...

[jayyy-lmao]

You should call the police on your dad. Or tell someone you trust, like a friend or teacher, or go to your local police station and report him. When he's behind bars, things will improve.

[Mynick]

You are NOT worthless or a piece of shit as your dad says. I know you dad has alreday got away with many things but you need to stay strong, your mother needs your support too. Can´t you talk with your uncle to help you again?
Stay strong, PM me if you need to talk.

[xarvon1412]

Don't do it, please don't. I swear, you're not worthless, you are great. For putting up with all of this until now, that proves that you're amazing. Don't let him win. Talk to somebody, the police, a social worker, a school counselor, a teacher, anybody. Don't let your father do anymore more harm than he already has. Don't kill yourself, your mother needs you, your brothers need you. I know, it's hard right now. Right now doesn't seem like it will ever get better, but it will. You have to make it there first though. You need to be there to support your family. Without you, who would support them? You need to be there. Don't kill yourself, you're worth so much more than you know. You can post on my wall if you ever need to talk okay? Please, I'd love to help you further :)