Worrying...not sure what to do. help?

[ezekialar]

For some reason i am very depressed and it seems like i have no reason to be. I have many good friends, im going to a new school which i like very much, i get good grades, my family is awesome, and i am learning to play guitar. I just have like these little panic attacks where i freak out and think about suicide...but there is no possible way i could ever act on it. the thought of all this is ust making me freak out. could someone possibly tell me why i feel like this?

[thesphinx]

Hi first of all welcome to VT. you need to get to the root of why you are feeling depressed.
when you have these panic attacks is it a thought that makes you panic? I reccommend you see a counselor. because they can really help you get to the bottom of why you are feeling this way. with things like depression the sooner you get help the faster and better it will be to recover.

[byee]

If you have a history of this, then eventhough all those other things you've mentioned are good things in your life, there might be some biologicl underpinning to the panic. Have you spoken to a therapist? Has this ever been evaluated?

Also, people who have panic are often very sensitive, emotionally aware people. So, eventhough you might not have cared for your step dad, the divorce is still a change, and the whole process can be nerve wracking, esp. for mom? maybe eventhough the divorce might be ok, her reaction to either it, or the divorce process, is stressing her, which you'd pick up on.

[ezekialar]

its not really a thought..idk. i dont really think about it at all when im doing something and my mind is preoccupied. like if im hangin out with friends. and i have thought about goin to a counselor but i dont want to put my mom under anymore stress then she already is. she just got a divorce and my brother got into a car accident at the beginning of summer.

[Maverick]

Are you 100% sure what we talked about over AIM isn't what's stressing you out?

[ezekialar]

im still trying to figure that out. I haven't been thinking about it quite so much but i still do a little bit. so yeah, i guess it could have some effect on it.

[byee]

Do you have a history of panic? When did it start? Do you think that your mom's divorce might be contributing to this?

[ezekialar]

i've always panicked about things like grades and being worried about my mom when i was little. but as for the divorce...no. he was just my step dad, who i really didnt like that much anyways. lol

[kovert43]

Yeah i know what mean got the same thing i used have all that problen i had
ADHD and OD then got worse but got over it but i still have my panic places aslong as u dont try to commit sucide. remember who u would hurt