My mom insists I have a problem.....

[Dystopianlife]

Let me start off by saying that I weigh 139 pounds at my last weigh in, which was before my scale got taken away. I'm 5"11. I didn't think I had a problem, but....I'm starting to wonder. :/
Okay, so this summer, I was even fatter than I am now. 170 pounds. I starting losing weight, my mom was really happy for me...everyone said I was looking better.
Then, in September..... I don't know. Everything just seemed to get a lot more serious. I started skipping meals more often. Counting calories even closer. I tried throwing up....but it didn't really work for me.
It's progressed to where I'm literally terrified of the food I eat. I average about 800 calories or less away.....can you say oink oink? I've been throwing up about once or twice a day.......it's risky, but I just can't stand that shit in my body. And then I usually eat a little more.....I make myself sick. Why, just today, I ate
A fourth of a cup of trail mix
A can of beef stew
An ounce of potato chips
AND a ginger ale.
I disgust myself. One thing. Just ONE thing to do, to look a little better. And what do I do? I blow it. As soon as I'm done, I'll just go puke. I don't care.
I have made progress was a size 14-16. Down to wear my most comfortable pair of jeans is a size 5. But I'm still fat.
Oh....did i mention I'm flipping 13? And I have a suicide attempt. Last month. Which is why I'm now in a public school. And let's see..... I 'cut', I'm rebellious, and basically a know it all bitch.XD except I don't know it all.... Not even close. I just don't want people to see....what I really am. A selfish, insecure, fat little bitch who will never ever be enough, but keeps pathetically trying anyway.XD then again.... I'm probably not hiding it at all. They can all see it......so why am I still trying?

[Silicate Wielder]

thats not really much, I eat more than that and I still somehow can't seem to stop loosing weight so I drink protein shakes to bulk up when I need it. anyways. don't throw up its bad for your body and just puts strain on it which in turn may end up getting you sick. anyways just go with small portions and watch the calorie intake. by the looks of it what you ate today seems perfectly fine.

if you don't think that is enough try eating salad at school, if your school dosn't provide salads like mine does just make one at home you can bring with you.

Also, if your loosing weight to impress guys, theres alot of us who like heavy-set girls, even though some of us don't like to admit it.

[lightPainting]

you say that you cant stand the food you put in your body. Try eating cleaner foods like fruits and vegetables. did you know that a grapefruit cleans the digestive and urinary systems. And a lemon purifies the blood.

[sudmais]

If you are 5"11' then you're body needs more than 800 calories for basic functions like filtering blood, cell repair, thinking strait...