Odd emotions..

[candabear17]

Lately I've been dealing with a lot of emotions that I blocked out related to being raped 2 years ago. I didn't know him and I've never seen him since but I've been able to sketch pictures of him that look pretty realistic though. I know it's weird but I really want to meet him again so I can sleep with him. Idk if it's because I want to "relive the trauma" or because I think I can "change what happened" (both of which are symptoms of my PTSD). Has anyone else felt this way about their attacker?

[Forsakenbymyself]

It looks like you suffer from Stockholm syndrome. You should talk with somebody that is competent.

[candabear17]

It looks like you suffer from Stockholm syndrome. You should talk with somebody that is competent.

No I doubt it. I don't like him at all. I hope he dies a horribly bloody death. But I want to have sex with him. My friend says it normal but it still doesn't sit right with me.

[Forsakenbymyself]

No I doubt it. I don't like him at all. I hope he dies a horribly bloody death. But I want to have sex with him. My friend says it normal but it still doesn't sit right with me.

Perhaps the trauma "damaged" your sexuality and the way you get aroused. Maybe you now feel attracted to people who used violence to you.

[candabear17]

Perhaps the trauma "damaged" your sexuality and the way you get aroused. Maybe you now feel attracted to people who used violence to you.

that sounds about right >.<

[CharlieHorse]

Tell that to a therapist or psychiatrist and see what they say about it.
It sounds strange, considering you hate him, but have this attraction to him...