Sexuality Crisis

[Tterrag97]

So im a 15 year old male who has been straight all his life. I've always liked girls and never once doubted it. However recently I've been having second thoughts. A couple months ago I started wondering if I was actually gay and I ended up here. I'm a bit of a porn addict since I first started it at either 8 or 10 and have recently tried to quit several times (I had just gone 6 days without porn or masturbating but just relapsed about an hour ago, but didn't use porn). Here's basically what I'm currently feeling: I am sexually attracted to guys and girls but there is currently a strong desire for gay sex; I believe that I'm emotionally attracted to only girls but I don't know for sure; I began looking at gay porn (Something that I had once looked at years ago, but clicked off of it within seconds). None of this makes any sense to me as I have always been only attracted to girls, looking primarily at them in porn and probably jacked off to the thought of probably every girl I've ever met at least once. I don't have any problem with LGBT people, just that I don't really want to be one myself. I'm currently a virgin an have never had a girlfriend, although when I was little I had some sort of a "relationship" with this girl, and have had a few crushes on girls. In my mind I have both gay and straight fantasies, but In real life find myself looking at only girls. I'm also a pretty quiet and shy person, and don't have many friends.I have a few ideas of what's going on, but I would like to know what you guys think.

P.S. I have been dealing with anxiety for years and obsessive thoughts since this summer regarding various topics such as thinking i was going to have a heart attack, thinking I was going to turn into a murderer, and thinking I was becoming a pedophile (the pedophile thoughts revolved around a girl btw).

Also, sorry if this is long and unorganized. I don't really know how to get all this down in writing. I probably ended up forgetting somethings too.

[Synyster Shadows]

Well, I think you're just going through a phase. I've never had thoughts about guys that far, just friends, but I don't think it's a problem dude. It could just be b/c of ur hormones raging. if you only look at girls, I think you're straight but curious. well, good luck. You can come talk to me if you have any questions about any of what I've said.

[anyone50]

I doubt that you could be classified as gay by what you have said in your post and while many people won't admit it, guys and girls as well have thought about sex with someone of the same sex. I have said this in other post but I'll say it again and that is most people fall somewhere other than 100 percent straight or gay. I was almost 14 when I started thinking about what it would be like to have sex with another girl and yet i'm in a hetrosexual relationship for the almost a year now. On a scale from 0-10 with 0 being 100 percent straight i'm more like a 4 on the scale which makes me more or less bi. On the porn and masturbation thing I wouldn't worry too much about not being able to stop completely your in pretty good company in that area as long as you don't let it take over your life.

[AbbaZabba]

I think we all go through it, whether we admit it or don't. Think it's part of what we all go through at this age.

[wattado]

I think you may just be curious. From what you have said it doesn't sound like you are gay.

[Lost in the Echo]

I think this is just a phase. You're going through puberty, and your hormones are raging, and that causes you to be extremely horny.
The way you feel is very common for an adolescent going through puberty. You're just very horny, and it's normal to want to experiment, and try differently things, sexually.

You're just a horny teenager going through puberty.
Everything is fine. It appears that you're just going through a curiosity phase.

[NeuroTiger]

You are surely not gay. Most adolescents experience these sexual feelings; it's just part of puberty.