Suicide

[Sudds3]

I used to always try and avoid the word. I was afraid of it and it scared me, now i welcome it. I just want it to come. I want to kill myself. I really do, today hasnt been terribly bad its been pretty normal but i hate how everyday for the past 3 months has been the exact same. I wake up and then go to school and think about suicide and cutting and then i go home and think about suicide and cutting and then at night i lay in bed thinking about suicide and cutting. A while ago it was just cutting mainly and on bad days it was suicide but not too in depth.

These past few days ive been oddly quiet says everyone. I have been thinking of killing myself, and now seems like a great time. Its almost 10 and everyone will be going to sleep so i can do it. Ill either hang myself because i have a noose in the basement as a halloween decoration or ill take pills. I dont know what kind. Ill take all of them and hope for the best. I just dont want to have to deal with life anymore, there is a lot more than just the repetitive daily life i have but i dont want to get into it.

Thanks for a good run, im just not cut out for life.

[CharlieHorse]

No no no no no!!! Please don't kill yourself! Please!
Have you told anyone how you feel?

[Cognizant]

Don't. It really aint worth it man.
Why do you feel like taking your own life?

[Breakeven]

hun things will get better it takes time , please dont do it
maybe try to talk to someone and get help?it will easy things for you and talk to us , we are all here for u and will help you , you are not alone in this
try to start a hobby or something its better then just sitting and thinking about it , you need to keep your mind off if it till things get better or you get help but thinking will do you no good , you are just going throu hard time in your life but its not forever
there is more in life then you know and there is soo much a head of you!

[Sudds3]

Ive been thinking of telling my friend but hehasnt responded so ill just sit here. Its all really complicated, my parents expect me to get a 4.0 and anything less is shameful. My sister is having some minor medical problems and might have to be submitted to the hospital and hooked up to an IV and stuff. Life is repetitive and boring and school work is always the same, but i never feel like doing any of it. I started cutting but had to stop because people got suspicious of the large bandages and i get made fun of at school for cussing a lot because everyone thinks thati only cuss because it makes me cool, which isnt true. Ive been depressed since 7th grade and have tried to kill myself once before. I dont want to be depressed anymore, and killing myself seems like the only way.

Ive been deep in building things lately, ive built another coffin for a halloween decoration, im about to start making another. I finished 3 tombstones and im about to work on an elaborate one that has Death on top with large feathered wings, it helps but i cant just continuously build all day every day. I think about suicide whenever im not building, no matter how hard i try and avoid it

[Avenida105]

It's been the same for me, I've been having the worst time any person could have. I have come to a point that there are dreams that we can't simply have. My life is a hell the only reason why I haven't killed myself is because I couldn't do something like that to my mother, other than that I have come close to it 3 times, and if you can do it go ahead, there is nothing in life worth living. After all what is there to live for? I'm sorta glad there is someone out there just like me.

[eeee]

Please, whatever you do, don't kill yourself!

Someone in my school took her own life about a month ago and it has affected everyone SO badly, even people she barely even knew were hurt. People care about you a lot more than you realize, that goes for everyone.

Please talk to a friend or somebody. That helps SO MUCH knowing there's someone there that you can talk to and see when you need to.

[Sudds3]

It's been the same for me, I've been having the worst time any person could have. I have come to a point that there are dreams that we can't simply have. My life is a hell the only reason why I haven't killed myself is because I couldn't do something like that to my mother, other than that I have come close to it 3 times, and if you can do it go ahead, there is nothing in life worth living. After all what is there to live for? I'm sorta glad there is someone out there just like me.

The only reason i havnt killed myself either is because i cant do that to my mom.

I survived last night because i talked to my friend and he just listened. He said that talking about suicide made him uncomfortable and it really hit me there, ive been thinking of suicide for 3 years now so its im comfortable with it. Its no a stranger. It used to be a scary thought polluting my head but i thunk about it so much that now im past thinking about if i will. Now im thinking about how and when. M friend saved my life last night. And i cant thank him enough for that.

Im held together for a while now because of my friend and im so thankful i have him. No matter how hard it is to talk to someone, do it. Just do it. Say you need to talk about something personal and then say it. You willfeel terrible right after you send the text, like oh my god...what have i done? Now he/she knows. But they realize you are in trouble and scared too so they wont abandon you.

Thanks everyone for the support over the last few mobths. Im sure ill need it for the months to come but i think that last night was probably one of the worst i will have for a while.

-Adam

[xXoblivionXx]

My little brother's name is Adam and I love him so much. Reading this almost brought me to tears. I know how hard it is trying to survive each day but you are strong for making it so far. Please don't commit suicide, you deserve every bit of life. I'm always here if you ever want to talk

[Sudds3]

So i talked to my friend friday night and it wasnt too long of a conversation only like an hour. But last night i went ice skating with some friends mainly just to get away from my family and i wasnt too energetic. I just kind of skated around slowly alone most of the night and then spent the night over at the friend who i talked to's house. I was a little nervous just me and him all night open to talking, but i wanted to sincerely thank him in person because he did honestly and truly save my life. I was ready to kill myself, so i told him and obviously he had a lot of questions. First of which "why" and i went on and we talked and he asked questions. But i always tell him he cant tell anyone because if people found out it would spread and i would be put into a psych ward and it would make things much worse. But he made me promise him that tomorrow i would go and make an appointment with my counselor and then go to the meeting.

It was a good talk that i had with my friend cuz it made me feel better and i was able to get a lot off of my chest. I to,d him i started cutting and that ive tried killing myself before and it just helps to have someone there that just knows what youre going through. Especially because when we were ice skating he told me that everyone was concerned and asking him what was up with me and he was able to just take care of it for me and it helped a lot. So im fine now and im going to talk to my counselor no matter how scared i am

[unusedaccount]

Adults prefer to diagnose and label, because its easier than sitting down, listening, and accepting.

[Avenida105]

The only reason i havnt killed myself either is because i cant do that to my mom.

I survived last night because i talked to my friend and he just listened. He said that talking about suicide made him uncomfortable and it really hit me there, ive been thinking of suicide for 3 years now so its im comfortable with it. Its no a stranger. It used to be a scary thought polluting my head but i thunk about it so much that now im past thinking about if i will. Now im thinking about how and when. M friend saved my life last night. And i cant thank him enough for that.

Im held together for a while now because of my friend and im so thankful i have him. No matter how hard it is to talk to someone, do it. Just do it. Say you need to talk about something personal and then say it. You willfeel terrible right after you send the text, like oh my god...what have i done? Now he/she knows. But they realize you are in trouble and scared too so they wont abandon you.

Thanks everyone for the support over the last few mobths. Im sure ill need it for the months to come but i think that last night was probably one of the worst i will have for a while.

-Adam

I'm so glad you found someone to talk to, it brings me a little bit of hope. I really wish I could have somebody like your friend in my life.

[Stryker125]

So i talked to my friend friday night and it wasnt too long of a conversation only like an hour. But last night i went ice skating with some friends mainly just to get away from my family and i wasnt too energetic. I just kind of skated around slowly alone most of the night and then spent the night over at the friend who i talked to's house. I was a little nervous just me and him all night open to talking, but i wanted to sincerely thank him in person because he did honestly and truly save my life. I was ready to kill myself, so i told him and obviously he had a lot of questions. First of which "why" and i went on and we talked and he asked questions. But i always tell him he cant tell anyone because if people found out it would spread and i would be put into a psych ward and it would make things much worse. But he made me promise him that tomorrow i would go and make an appointment with my counselor and then go to the meeting.

It was a good talk that i had with my friend cuz it made me feel better and i was able to get a lot off of my chest. I to,d him i started cutting and that ive tried killing myself before and it just helps to have someone there that just knows what youre going through. Especially because when we were ice skating he told me that everyone was concerned and asking him what was up with me and he was able to just take care of it for me and it helped a lot. So im fine now and im going to talk to my counselor no matter how scared i am

I don't know you, but I'm really proud of you for sticking around. Counseling is a really good idea. Talking really helps. A lot. I'm here for ya if you need me.

[Dystopianlife]

Don't do it.... I speak from experience. No way is COMPLETLY painless, and many don't work. I took half a bottle of Tylenol.....500 mg. woke up at 3am, freaked out. Was taken to er, and then to a children's hospital. During the course of the first two days, I experienced many hallucinations I am still trying to figure out. I don't really know you....but I care as a human being. Do what I do....go online, and spill your guts to random strangers.