Help please i don't know what to do in this situation... Mother-son relationship

[Virual_Teen]

Okay the computer is in the drawing room and i accidently clicked on Sex film it was just for a fraction of second i turned it off my mother didn't seem like she noticed that

But after a while she kept staring at me and i asked "mu ma why're you looking at me ?"

She said "Why can't I ? i'm just looking at what you're doing with the computer?"

"But why do you look at me like that ? its weird i...i'm just looking gaming articles and listening to music"

"You must be doing something wrong that's why you're being objected"

Does that mean all this time of casual talk she was trying to know if i'm really guilty or not ?

She just snapped and she just doesn't want to talk about anything and pretty much now just running away from me... now i don't....

My Brother watches that too I've caught him but pretended like i didn't see it.. but my mother is not like that she doesn't exactly come from a healthy family and doesn't have a healthy family with both of us either

She doesn't have an educated background and she's pretty Religious also has Severe mood change problems also has health problems

I am so Mad at myself i deleted everything ..... i JUST... WHY ? i can't help it.... i can't even explain that to her... She can't understand that she never socialized she never got education.

She probably thinks me as a nasty pervert

Serious answers plz I'm emotionally crumbled..

I have no friends or anyone else except an elder brother i never really go emotionally close to him i don't have any other family member

[dontfiguremeout]

Well first off, wanna say sorry for a low amount of relationships in your life. I think first if your kinda close with your brother, I think you need to start coming to him emotionally! That creates a strong bond between you and could help both of you in the future when you both are older! Now second, start trying to make friends at school or somewhere. Creating small talk should be the first step in creating friendships! And once you got some friendships going on, I think you need to start creating a better relationship with your mom! I think she would appreciate that a lot, since she wants to make sure her kids get a better family life than when she was a kid! So it would mean the world to her if you wanted to create a strong relationship with her! Then when your older and have kids you wouldn't do the same, and you would want to create a nice relationship with your kids!