redpandasarecute
February 4th, 2013, 08:26 PM
So right now I can't think, or I can but its useless.
I feel like I just want to die, maybe my future is full of stuff but ultimately I feel like I'll be a failure. At school I feel like no one knows or wants to know me, and if they talk to me I feel like I'm being...fake. I just can't talk to people anymore, I pretty much have no friends now and I tell myself it'll get better, but its been so long. Around my family I think I'm normal enough, and that's the only time I feel good. That's wrong though isn't it? I supposed to be outgoing...and likeable, what happened to me, my friends? I really don't feel good and I know I won't kill myself tonight, but these kinds of breakdowns really do get to be a lot...then I start to feel like these things aren't anything to be so depressed about, I'm just stupid weak or weird.
I'm not really sure what I'm asking for, probably nothing. I just needed to write this down
I feel like I just want to die, maybe my future is full of stuff but ultimately I feel like I'll be a failure. At school I feel like no one knows or wants to know me, and if they talk to me I feel like I'm being...fake. I just can't talk to people anymore, I pretty much have no friends now and I tell myself it'll get better, but its been so long. Around my family I think I'm normal enough, and that's the only time I feel good. That's wrong though isn't it? I supposed to be outgoing...and likeable, what happened to me, my friends? I really don't feel good and I know I won't kill myself tonight, but these kinds of breakdowns really do get to be a lot...then I start to feel like these things aren't anything to be so depressed about, I'm just stupid weak or weird.
I'm not really sure what I'm asking for, probably nothing. I just needed to write this down