BlueJaysGirl
February 4th, 2013, 12:20 PM
why cant i be happy.
why cant i be me...
why do i always feel this way.. i feel so empty without you :(
ive been talking to my ex on skype... sweet guy... but weve only been talking as friends....anyways he told me the other day he has some sort of sickness that may not be curable... i forget what he said it was... oh wait kidney dialysis or something like that.... and me and my ex are still pretty close to one another and idk if i would forgive myself if something happened to him.... i love him so much i care about him so much...
if you dont know what that is read this--------->http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/152902.php
anyways hes been sick off and on since we broke up.
im so scared im gonna lose him....its not like i can just hop on a train and go see him.. because i cant... his mother wont permit us to see eachother.. but if i dont see him and he dies.... idk what i will do..
i was talking to him last night on skype and he took on tormenting stomach pains and i couldnt bare to watch him suffer.... or hear him suffer..
at some point last night he much have gone to the hospital..
i remember him crying for his mom.. :'(
i wanna cry... i wanna cry so bad :'(
he was in so much pain.. oh the horror of losing him
idk what to do.. i can barely hold myself together.
someone please help me :'(
please........
why cant i be me...
why do i always feel this way.. i feel so empty without you :(
ive been talking to my ex on skype... sweet guy... but weve only been talking as friends....anyways he told me the other day he has some sort of sickness that may not be curable... i forget what he said it was... oh wait kidney dialysis or something like that.... and me and my ex are still pretty close to one another and idk if i would forgive myself if something happened to him.... i love him so much i care about him so much...
if you dont know what that is read this--------->http://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/152902.php
anyways hes been sick off and on since we broke up.
im so scared im gonna lose him....its not like i can just hop on a train and go see him.. because i cant... his mother wont permit us to see eachother.. but if i dont see him and he dies.... idk what i will do..
i was talking to him last night on skype and he took on tormenting stomach pains and i couldnt bare to watch him suffer.... or hear him suffer..
at some point last night he much have gone to the hospital..
i remember him crying for his mom.. :'(
i wanna cry... i wanna cry so bad :'(
he was in so much pain.. oh the horror of losing him
idk what to do.. i can barely hold myself together.
someone please help me :'(
please........