Am i depressed?

[hello111]

about 50% of the time im happy (or pretent to be) but the other 50% of the time im just really sad and withdrawn from my friends. I just feel like I cant be bothered living. I have just gave up on most things in my life. I dont like myself for a number of reasons and I want to know if anyone can tell me if i suffer from depression or whats wrong with me. thanks for viewing this thread.

Oh and im also not sure whats making me feel so bad.

[thesphinx]

when you are feeling happy are you really happy or just happy? does that change between happiness and sadness happen quick? is it a thought that makes you feel sad again? or does it just happen? can you think of any problems you have that could be related? are we talking like every day its divided 50/50 that your sad/happy? or is it over longer periods of time? sorry for all the questions but I think it will give us a better idea of what is going on.

[hello111]

when you are feeling happy are you really happy or just happy? does that change between happiness and sadness happen quick? is it a thought that makes you feel sad again? or does it just happen? can you think of any problems you have that could be related? are we talking like every day its divided 50/50 that your sad/happy? or is it over longer periods of time? sorry for all the questions but I think it will give us a better idea of what is going on.

I used to be VERY sad a lot about 4 years ago (crying myself to sleep some nights) then it kinda went away for a while and i would only become sad for about 1 day a week, but not really sad. Now i think im going back into my old sadness again, i didnt know what made me sad then or what made me sad now. It can be the slightest thing (like my friends joking around, i know its a joke but i cant help feeling sad and empty) that makes me very sad but sometimes i become sad for almost no reason.

10 mins ago i was really sad and now im happy again?!?!

[sage of craze]

Hm. I'd see a councilor and try to find out what makes you sad, in order to stop feeling this 'emptiness' you'd have to face whatever the situation or problem is. It does sound like a form of depression, during the happy times are you genuinly happy or faking it as you metioned above?

[hello111]

sometimes im happy and sometimes im pretending to be happy to stop my friends from worrying about me

[sage of craze]

Do you suddenly go from happy to depressed, or is it a gradual thing? Like a thought in the back of your mind that suddenly appears or a sadness that takes full form?

[hello111]

Fastest ive gone from happy to sad for no reason is about 10-20 mins.

[sage of craze]

So it's not sudden... What do you think about when you're sad? Just 'oh my gosh it's happening again?' Or is there a thought that's preminate in your mind?

[hello111]

I just keep asking myself "why do i feel so empty?"

[sage of craze]

Have you experianced a loss? A loss that may cause this emptiness? Pet, loved one? Loss doesn't mean death, they could of moved away, or ran away if it was a pet.

[hello111]

I moved away 4 years ago and that really made me sad. ever since that ive been ok with death and dieing

[thesphinx]

I think that there could be one of the following going on here. Bipolar disorder (Manic depression) do you sometimes feel "invisible" or really high when your happy, like your almost too happy. the sudden change in mood seems like it could be from Bipolar. or and this is what happened to me in my case, A thought is triggering this. when you feel sad, does it kind of escalate from a thought.
like maybe your friends are joking around, they say something that is criticizing you. but there joking of course. so maybe from that you think " do they like me?" and then it could escalate into " do they want me as a friend?" do you see how your thoughts can keep adding to each other. is it something like that,that happens? like your thoughts stack on each other until you feel sad?

[samfromsydney]

When you feel sad try calling a helpline. They are trained to help people that are feeling sad and may have some great advise for you.