HunterSteele
February 2nd, 2013, 01:05 AM
I’ve been meaning to post this for a while but kept putting it off because I didn’t want to jinx things. Now that we’re halfway through the school year it’s time to ask for you guys’ help. I wanted to post it a few weeks ago, but it took a while for me to write all this up.
There’s a kid in my photo class I started talking to early in the school year. We’ll call him Chase. Our first assignment in the class this year was pinhole cameras (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pinhole_camera). It’s a coffee can painted black inside with a tiny pinhole poked the bottom and a piece of photo taped inside the lid. You take it outside, uncover the hole, and a picture will end up on the photo paper. I’ve had experience with film and working in the darkroom before, so during our first assignment our teacher asked me to go out with groups of students to make sure they were doing it correctly. I went out with Chase and his friend Erik and that’s when we talked for the first time. They weren’t too receptive to me at first, but they got used to me. We did this a few times and things went pretty well. Here’s what the can looked like (there are more photos attached):
http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/attachment.php?attachmentid=5168&stc=1&d=1359785413
The pinhole camera assignment concluded around the beginning of November. Everyone’d gathered enough photos to hand in and created positives. Over time, from using the coffee can cameras outside and developing photos in the darkroom, Chase and I started talking more. (It was around this time I updated the phrase in my signature to say “I've been making more progress.”) Now, we talk every class about all sorts of stuff and we’re friends. I’m really excited and impressed with myself for getting this far, but now I have a problem:
We talk a lot, but never outside of class. I want to ask Chase to hang out sometime, but I’m not sure if we’re that far along. He already has his own friends. The reason I have my doubts is Chase and Erik have been friends longer and I haven’t even seem them together outside of this class. When we started the 35mm film assignment, Chase wouldn’t let me join his group with Erik. He only let me join after he wanted to borrow my copy of GTA IV and I refused to lend it to him unless he let me join.
On two occasions they went to the mall across the road from our school and bought food without asking me if I wanted to come, even though after the first time I asked them to take me with them next time. Some days when I look at how different he is and it feels like I’m crazy for even thinking for a moment we could ever be friends. Yet Chase is still nice to me, so it’s a battle between what my instinct and experience says and what I’m actually observing in reality.
There are only four months left in the school year. Chase is in grade 9 and I’m in grade 11. If I don’t get to the point where we’re talking outside of Photo class by then, we probably won’t have any classes together next year. Every time I see Chase I want to enjoy being around him and talking to him, but I can’t stop thinking about how if I don’t make my move in time this might only last for about 4 more months. We’re having a 2+ week spring break this year and there’s an additional long weekend because of Family Day ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Family_Day_%28Canada%29) (which my province just started observing this year ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Family_Day_%28Canada%29#British_Columbia)) so there are only a handful of classes I have left to talk to Chase before it’s game over.
Any ideas for what I can do? Failure is not an option. This is the closest I’ve ever gotten to finding a close friend and I might not make if after all. If I don’t, I’ll never get another chance with Chase and this’ll all have been in vain. Every time I think about that possibility, the dreadful feeling I get is unbearable. I don’t know what I’ll do if I don’t pull this off. It’s all I’ve been able to think about lately.
There’s a kid in my photo class I started talking to early in the school year. We’ll call him Chase. Our first assignment in the class this year was pinhole cameras (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pinhole_camera). It’s a coffee can painted black inside with a tiny pinhole poked the bottom and a piece of photo taped inside the lid. You take it outside, uncover the hole, and a picture will end up on the photo paper. I’ve had experience with film and working in the darkroom before, so during our first assignment our teacher asked me to go out with groups of students to make sure they were doing it correctly. I went out with Chase and his friend Erik and that’s when we talked for the first time. They weren’t too receptive to me at first, but they got used to me. We did this a few times and things went pretty well. Here’s what the can looked like (there are more photos attached):
http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/attachment.php?attachmentid=5168&stc=1&d=1359785413
The pinhole camera assignment concluded around the beginning of November. Everyone’d gathered enough photos to hand in and created positives. Over time, from using the coffee can cameras outside and developing photos in the darkroom, Chase and I started talking more. (It was around this time I updated the phrase in my signature to say “I've been making more progress.”) Now, we talk every class about all sorts of stuff and we’re friends. I’m really excited and impressed with myself for getting this far, but now I have a problem:
We talk a lot, but never outside of class. I want to ask Chase to hang out sometime, but I’m not sure if we’re that far along. He already has his own friends. The reason I have my doubts is Chase and Erik have been friends longer and I haven’t even seem them together outside of this class. When we started the 35mm film assignment, Chase wouldn’t let me join his group with Erik. He only let me join after he wanted to borrow my copy of GTA IV and I refused to lend it to him unless he let me join.
On two occasions they went to the mall across the road from our school and bought food without asking me if I wanted to come, even though after the first time I asked them to take me with them next time. Some days when I look at how different he is and it feels like I’m crazy for even thinking for a moment we could ever be friends. Yet Chase is still nice to me, so it’s a battle between what my instinct and experience says and what I’m actually observing in reality.
There are only four months left in the school year. Chase is in grade 9 and I’m in grade 11. If I don’t get to the point where we’re talking outside of Photo class by then, we probably won’t have any classes together next year. Every time I see Chase I want to enjoy being around him and talking to him, but I can’t stop thinking about how if I don’t make my move in time this might only last for about 4 more months. We’re having a 2+ week spring break this year and there’s an additional long weekend because of Family Day ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Family_Day_%28Canada%29) (which my province just started observing this year ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Family_Day_%28Canada%29#British_Columbia)) so there are only a handful of classes I have left to talk to Chase before it’s game over.
Any ideas for what I can do? Failure is not an option. This is the closest I’ve ever gotten to finding a close friend and I might not make if after all. If I don’t, I’ll never get another chance with Chase and this’ll all have been in vain. Every time I think about that possibility, the dreadful feeling I get is unbearable. I don’t know what I’ll do if I don’t pull this off. It’s all I’ve been able to think about lately.