Suicide

[xXoblivionXx]

The word has been in my head lately. It seems to be the only thing that calms me down. I guess you can say that lately I have been at a low and I don't really see the point of trying anymore. As in I seriously don't see the point of living anymore. Back in November I was going to attempt but I was texting a friend and he stopped me. The next morning he told me that he told the school social worker and that he rather have me hate him than have me dead and leave him knowing that he could have stopped it. But I really wish he hadn't done that. Why did he tell? Why? FUCKING WHY? I wanted to be dead, it fucking hurts living, there is no point of going through all of this pain. I just want it to be over :cry:

[jayyy-lmao]

Dont do it. Seriously. I know how you feel. I feel like that right now to. But I KNOW, and I keep it in my head, that it will get better. There is always light at the end of the tunnel. You just haven't reached the end of your tunnel.

[Cadbury-Monster]

There's always something, somebody left living for, no matter how bad it gets. Try to remember happy times, think of all you've done, and all you've got left to do.

[autismtwin]

I thought that, too. I have attempted it seven times. Seven times I've survived. You have a reason to be here, you really do.

Back when I attempted it, it calmed me. The fact that I had control of something seemed calming. You need to keep control of something else. Listen to music, do art, anything that you like.

Give yourself a day. Tell yourself, "Just one more day." Then give yourself a few more days and so on and eventually it won't feel as bad.

It does get better, I promise you. Don't do it, don't become a statistic. On the 29th, I lost someone to suicide. Please, for me, don't do it.

[ImCoolBeans]

If committing suicide was something that you would be able to regret I can guarantee that you would regret it time and time again. Living may hurt right now; but wounds heal and that is something that only time can do. If you do not allow the healing process to take place then it won't happen. Speaking from experience, one of the most difficult things anybody can do is to begin to break down some of the walls they put themselves inside of. Depression is the most demotivating thing I have ever experienced in my life. I have lost so much will to do so many things that I love dearly; but every day I have to remind myself constantly that if I don't do what I love to do then I'm only allowing myself to fall victim to depression's grasp even further. I see you're interested in photography -- art is a great way to express how you feel -- it is fun and therapeutic and can really do wonders for you. Things like that are what you need to start to do a little more often to feel the joys of what you love again. Your friend only told the school because he cares about you -- if he had turned his head the other way then he would have been doing you a major disservice. He is a good friend for what he did for you, he only wants to see you succeed and recover -- we all do. He cares, I care, the rest of us here care. You are not alone in this and we'll be with you every step of the way if that's what you wish; but please don't ever feel like you are. If there is ever anything you need, don't hesitate to contact me personally. I am always going to be more than willing to do whatever I can to help. You're a strong person, and I hope you realize that. You can keep going; if you weren't strong enough you wouldn't have made it this far already. I hope all goes well, be safe.

[Kriss41]

I agree with Mike.
Suicide isn't the answer. Even if it seems to be. Your friend was trying to help you, not hurt you. They wanted to make sure you made the right decision. They were looking out for you.
Life does hurt a lot. It can be a real bitch. But when life bitches, you gotta stand higher than it and be a bigger, better, stronger person than it. I promise, one day you'll thank your friend for doing what they did.
If you end your life now, though, you'll never live up to your full potential.

[xXoblivionXx]

Hey guys, thanks for replying. As I was reading these they made me feel like I'm not alone and that people care. Unfortunately, I hadn't read them until this morning. Last night... um... last night I attempted.. but after about 7 pills or so I couldn't do it. I couldn't finnish myself off. I realized that there is more to it than I was seeing. I need to live. I need to live so that I can help those who need it. I'm not at school today because the pills that I took are making me have nausea and a migraine. But this gives me time to reflect, time to straighten things out. Again, thanks Jenny, Cadbury-Monster, Cassie, Mike, and Kriss.

[West Coast Sheriff]

The word has been in my head lately. It seems to be the only thing that calms me down. I guess you can say that lately I have been at a low and I don't really see the point of trying anymore. As in I seriously don't see the point of living anymore. Back in November I was going to attempt but I was texting a friend and he stopped me. The next morning he told me that he told the school social worker and that he rather have me hate him than have me dead and leave him knowing that he could have stopped it. But I really wish he hadn't done that. Why did he tell? Why? FUCKING WHY? I wanted to be dead, it fucking hurts living, there is no point of going through all of this pain. I just want it to be over :cry:

Just hang in there and everything will get better, I know it's bad but if you give it time, things will pick up. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here. Stay strong