Please Help Confused

[Firestorm777]

All my life I've identified as straight. I've never been that sexually "active", not learning what porn was till 7th grade and didn't masturbate regularly (once a week or so) until 8-9th grade. Recently (I'm 17) I've been having some confusing feelings. I've found myself attracted to guys that I would call cute or young looking. I've never acted upon any of the confusing feelings (I've never watched gay porn etc) but they are still scary. When I was younger I never experimented and maybe these odd feelings have been unfulfilled curiosities. Though I have no problem with gays or the gay community, I really don't want to be gay. Why am I having these feelings and why am I attracted to younger/cuter looking guys rather than more masculine guys. I've never been abused or had any sexual encounter except the most minor (I've seen my friends penis, but there was no contact). I am prone to anxiety and have spent the whole day googling (which is dangerous for me... I once diagnosed myself with cancer by using google). I don't want to be a pervert (not the gay part but the younger looking guy part). Please help me untangle the mess that is my mind

[Unholy]

One word. Puberty. Becoming interested in boys doesn't make you gay, you're just curious. These feelings and thoughts are completely normal for teenage guys, so don't worry about it. There is always the possibility of you being gay or bisexual, but I would say you're most likely just curious, especially if you just started getting these feelings. Just remember, this is normal and there is nothing wrong with experimenting or being gay/bisexual.

[Gandalf]

All my life I've identified as straight. I've never been that sexually "active", not learning what porn was till 7th grade and didn't masturbate regularly (once a week or so) until 8-9th grade. Recently (I'm 17) I've been having some confusing feelings. I've found myself attracted to guys that I would call cute or young looking. I've never acted upon any of the confusing feelings (I've never watched gay porn etc) but they are still scary. When I was younger I never experimented and maybe these odd feelings have been unfulfilled curiosities. Though I have no problem with gays or the gay community, I really don't want to be gay. Why am I having these feelings and why am I attracted to younger/cuter looking guys rather than more masculine guys. I've never been abused or had any sexual encounter except the most minor (I've seen my friends penis, but there was no contact). I am prone to anxiety and have spent the whole day googling (which is dangerous for me... I once diagnosed myself with cancer by using google). I don't want to be a pervert (not the gay part but the younger looking guy part). Please help me untangle the mess that is my mind

First off, I don't think you are being "pervy"
As the user above me said you're still going through puberty, maybe not physically but definately still mentally, you could just be curious at an older age from being from a sheltered background. This is perfectly normal.

If you do have an attraction towards men that does persist it would be healthier to acknowledge it and try to become comfortable with it, you know not to be inappropriate towards those who are too young so you don't have anything to worry about.

Don't be quick to look for a label, and nobody is forcing you to come out. Take your time to learn what you like and dislike and be happy with it, there isn't any escaping it.

I hope this helped, if you need anything else just let us know :)

[unusedaccount]

Nothing wrong with the feelings your having... Your still going through Puberty. If you don't 'want' to be Gay, then date a girl. If you want to experiment, then go out with a guy. No need to label yourself. Labels are for cans of Tuna!!!!! Not people!