I can't eat..

[Nevermore]

so my boyfriend claims he doesn't eat.. only coffee and cigs, that triggered me. to only consuming coffee, cigs, 2 slices of 40 cal toast and 1 banana for over a week. i know i'm going to die, i except this, the last 3 days i've been bingeing.. and having a huge downfall in my depression, tomorrow i'm going to restrict my diet and no bingeing and hope to get myself on a new mind set.. i need control over my life, i need to feel once again... i need.. i need something.. I need to be thin..

[Kriss41]

Honey, you ARE thin. Very thin. If you can see your shoulder and collar bones you are very thin. I recommend eating a little more and finding help. It's very unhealthy to not eat enough. You're gonna end up in a hospital,sadly. Or worse.

[Mob Boss]

Hi, Sammy!

I know right now the only thing you can hear is that echo in your head telling you to do whatever it takes to have a thigh gap, but that same echo is telling you to destroy the very thing you are trying to perfect; your body. He probably meant he really enjoys coffee and cigarettes, to the point that he feels like he's solely living off them. He probably also doesn't know the impact those words have on someone struggling with an ED. I know your health and well-being is one of the first things to go out the window when the voices of your ED are resounding in your head, but life -- a long, healthy life -- is more beautiful than any bones. Don't accept that life of lies, deteriorating and unhappiness. You deserve more than that, Sammy. Your mind set shouldn't be thinner , it should be healthier, happier. You said yourself that you've had a downfall in your depression, you're not happy. Are you truly happy doing this to your body? Don't you want to be able to eat oatmeal without panicking over the calories in it then the calories you need to burn to feel empty again? That isn't living. You deserve so much more than that. Look at yourself, you're beautiful! I know it seems easier to keep depriving yourself (I know the feeling too well), but when are you going to start being happy? :hug: If you ever need to talk, I'm always here for you.

[lightPainting]

Ask your self this question. Do you want to be thin or do you want to be happy. your weight does not determine how happy you are. your diet does not only have a physical effect on you, but also a mental and emotional effect. TRY this, eat at least 2 oranges 1 banana and some carrots everyday for 10 days and see how you feel afterwards.

if you have any questions just ask.