I just cried for the first time in months.

[Lyra Heartstrings]

I've hardened. Lost most of my emotion. I haven't truly cried. Yeah, tears have fallen down my face. From forcing myself. To look like I actually cared. But god..just now..tears are streaming down my face..I'm silently crying, so I don't worry my parents. And why? Because I miss my best friend. And I'll never see her again. She was taken from me. And I have no idea where she is. And I'll never see her again.
I don't know why I'm posting this. I don't normally post about my problems on VT. But I don't know where to go. And I had to say this.

[eeee]

I'm so sorry. I hope things get better.

[dontfiguremeout]

Ohhhh, I'm so sorry Blake! Wherever she's at, i bet she's in a better place! Hope you feel better! -with extra love, Jordan! :)

[Coolboi]

that's sad I hope your alright ! I have lost a few people I really care for in the past year. if you need someone I'm here for you . Blake hope your ok . :hug:

[Steve Jobs]

I don't know what to say Blake, except the fact that you surely did come to the right place if you're wanting to let out some steam and have people to talk to and listen to you :)

I suffer from a huge deal of mental dissociation too. I don't suffer emotionally or cry and neither do I really feel good feelings much. What I can say is, when you really do cry, it's a sign things are getting better. Sometimes you really need to let out and let things heal.

[PinkFloyd]

I know how you feel, man. I was watching this video on Youtube that was a 9/11 memorial soundtrack with this little girl who slowly grew up in the video. by the end of the video she was 15. Powerful stuff. I was sobbing for like 5 minutes straight.

[Kriss41]

I'm sorry pal. I know what it's like to lose a friend. I've lost four in my short life. It's real hard... If ya ned a friend you can talk to me. I am here for you.

[Lyra Heartstrings]

Thanks for the support, I suppose. I wish I could say it helped. But..it's just spiraling downwards.

[nice]

Im so sorry blake. I know weve never talked before but you can pm me and email me any time :hug2:

[Mob Boss]

I know sorry won't suffice, but I want you to know I'm truly sorry this happened to you. I can't fathom what you're feeling right now. Get all of your emotions out, if you can; holding it in will only make the pain worse. Your friend, wherever she is, would want you to try your best to get to a point of stability and to let your emotions out. I know the emotions and pain is still raw, but tell yourself it's okay to be feeling this way and to hurt for a little while. Like Steve said, letting yourself feel for the first time in a long time, no matter how painful, is a big step forward. I hope you get to feeling better, Blakey. But if not, realize it's okay to ask for help on here and feel a little vulnerable. :hug: