i feel so guilty...i was so close

[ShatteredWings]

I almost went 3wks w/out biting...but today i cracked(er, 3wk would be tomorow:whoops: )

ihad a real bad panic atack, and i was remembering things htat happend when i was little, and i was already having trouble keeping my hand outta my mouth in the first place....i lost it. my hands are coverd in bruses and its hard to look at myself w/out seeing the weak girl i probaby am.



its realy hard, im sure most ppl here understand. Should i wait a week and then try as hard as i can to stop? or just try to while i'm near the edge...wher i dont want to return to the world. where i want to leave forever(if yaknow what i mean *mutters*suiside)

[ctw4451]

Self - Harm is not the answer. It makes things worse, and if you can stop completely it can help you get better. I think you should try again, and you "could be guilty" or you can realize that you're trying really hard and that you've tried for a while, and that you should just try again :)

[ShatteredWings]

Self - Harm is not the answer. It makes things worse, and if you can stop completely it can help you get better. I think you should try again, and you "could be guilty" or you can realize that you're trying really hard and that you've tried for a while, and that you should just try again :)

yea, i know that its wrong.....its hard to stop though. wish i could forever.i guess its adicting in a way.:(

[Attax]

just try ur best to resist the impulse

[byee]

Another one of your posts, same response from me. TELL AN ADULT this stuff, get to a doctor, okay? Have you done this yet?

[Whisper]

Why do you feel the need to do this to begin with?
what triggers it?


What happened hun?

[ShatteredWings]

im never sure why i started in the first place.

before i just did it. no reason realy. just frustrated basicly.

now i only realy want to if im nervous, scared, or panicing.