im back

[dying lullaby]

im back onto vt, its been along time since ive been here. ive been to the psyche ward 2 times now. i havent cut in 3 months and 6 days...but its getting harder to keep it up. i CANT throw away my razors, they're like a security blanket for me...i'd totally freak if i didnt know they were there at all times to save me from ODing or something stupid like taht. i just need some words of encouragement, please...i know that used to be my job around here but now i feel so weak i just cant help others until i am helped myself. sorry.

~Bri

[bjl17]

Wow youre doing really well. I know what you mean about the security blanket thing i do the same thing i need to keep pills and blades just so i know theyre there. Im not planning to do anything stupid but its good to know theyre there. Keep it up you have done really well not to cut for so long. Everyones here if you need to talk. Dont go back to it you know yourself its not worth it. I dont mean to sound like a hypocrite saying dont cut when i do but im trying to stop.

[dying lullaby]

thanks, any words of encouragement make me feel stronger

[Waiting]

i would never of been able to throw away my blades if i didnt have someoen to do it for me
i still carry lighters on me incase i feel desperate need of self harm, but i havnt in 124 days so its all good
bri hunny, you are doing awesome, remember you a year ago, heavily into cutting, not looking which direction to go in next, always putting others first, never listenening to me when i said put ureself first for once!
and this is why im so glad to see this post asking for help, it shows the maturity that i knew you would bring to this site, and it shows that you want tot turn it around.
Keep Goign babe
the key is in the time
xxxx

[dying lullaby]

patch, that post is one of the most meaningful things someone has ever said to me.
thankyou for knowing that i'd be ok in the end.

you keep me strong

Bri