Aceso
January 23rd, 2013, 01:26 PM
I don't know what on earth is up, things should be so bad right now but I actually feel amazing.
So a couple of days ago my parents told me they were divorcing, we've been looking at houses today etc. and usually this would tare me apart, however I'm excited...this gives me a whole room of opportunity, and the fighting will finally end.
Things have been feeling so badly for me recently - my health has declined rapidly and it's been getting me down, with looming exams and life has just been getting on top of me, not to mention relapsing with my eating disorder, however for the past week I feel like I've been flying.
My health has improved, I've had chance to spend time with the people I care about, I've got work done, lost weight in a healthy fashion, been able to finally hang out with the guy I care about again etc. and just get on with my friggen life, instead of being held back.
For a long time now I've just felt like I've been held down by my health, emotions, family, had a lot of peer pressure from friends to be a certain way for a long time and recently I've felt like I've been strong enough to step away from that, and since I can't believe how easy life has gotten for me. By breaking off the situations I've found difficult I feel so much more free and happy, and I guess I've found I'm better off without them, such as purging etc.
I guess here is where I need advice. I've had stuff like this in the past - periods of literally rushing ahead for a while, and then crashing. I have had minor mood crashes once or twice this week but recovered to a high point still. How can I keep going at the rate I'm going? I don't want to drop back into my old habits and mood again and I want to eventually stop having these mini mood swings. Anyone else have ideas? In this situation too?
Thanks :)
So a couple of days ago my parents told me they were divorcing, we've been looking at houses today etc. and usually this would tare me apart, however I'm excited...this gives me a whole room of opportunity, and the fighting will finally end.
Things have been feeling so badly for me recently - my health has declined rapidly and it's been getting me down, with looming exams and life has just been getting on top of me, not to mention relapsing with my eating disorder, however for the past week I feel like I've been flying.
My health has improved, I've had chance to spend time with the people I care about, I've got work done, lost weight in a healthy fashion, been able to finally hang out with the guy I care about again etc. and just get on with my friggen life, instead of being held back.
For a long time now I've just felt like I've been held down by my health, emotions, family, had a lot of peer pressure from friends to be a certain way for a long time and recently I've felt like I've been strong enough to step away from that, and since I can't believe how easy life has gotten for me. By breaking off the situations I've found difficult I feel so much more free and happy, and I guess I've found I'm better off without them, such as purging etc.
I guess here is where I need advice. I've had stuff like this in the past - periods of literally rushing ahead for a while, and then crashing. I have had minor mood crashes once or twice this week but recovered to a high point still. How can I keep going at the rate I'm going? I don't want to drop back into my old habits and mood again and I want to eventually stop having these mini mood swings. Anyone else have ideas? In this situation too?
Thanks :)