Still Very Confused.

[ctw4451]

I'm sorry for all of the posts about sexuality. I'm still very confused. I tell myself I'm straight, then I have doubts. Then I say I'm gay, but I'm just very very VERY confused. I don't know where my life is headed.

I'm confused more than ever. I wonder if I'm exaggerating when I look at a female that I think is hot that I'm nervous and that's the reason I'm not aroused. I try to not think about it, but when I get close to getting too confused, I take naps. I run away from it. I want a way to just find out what's right and closing the door on it. I want to decide my sexual orientation then close the door on it.

I'm scared, I'm upset. My life is changing more than ever. I'm doing better in school, but I'm losing friends. It's spiralling out of control. I'm bordering emo, but I would never cut myself or go suidicial. My personality is changing. I used to be a bright boy, one that's a little preppy. I love rock music now, I'm basically an outsider.

I'm trying to stay positive, I'm trying. I'm very thankful to those on VT because you guys seem like the only one I can express all of my problems to. Everything's changing. I need some reassurance. I need some help.

[BornActor]

unfortunately i dont think there is really any way to decide ur orientation until after puberty is done unless u know for sure. But think about this: Are u emotionally attracted to girls/guys? If there is only a physical attraction then most psychiatrists dont consider that to be gay. But only u can know so good luck with that srry i cant be of more help

[ctw4451]

I'm emotionally attracted to women.

[redcar]

Ok to start with...

:hug:

You look like you need one! Sexuality is very complex. Now what I would suggest doing, and it worked for me. Is to forget about everything world thinks of being gay or bi, and ask yourself truthfully the question. Now that could take months to do. But the thing is you actually know the answer, you may not realise it but you do know the answer.

I wont lie to you and say its easy its far from it. But it does get better. You may be emotionally attracted to women because you just want to to be.

How old are you may I ask?

[ctw4451]

I'm 14, and what is that smiley doing, rofl.