Houtz96
January 22nd, 2013, 10:38 PM
I really didn't know where to put this so I thought here would the best place.
(backstory thoughts): I'm introverted, I've never had a lot of close friends, I'm starting to get a lot of stress.
Since last year, I've gained a considerable ammount of very good friends and I still do. No, they aren't doing drugs, and no, they aren't a "bad group". We're all in band and I've gotten very close to a lot of them. I really think I have great friends and I hope they think I'm great too?
This backstory may make me look jealous, but oh well. There is this one friend whos name is Spencer. Ever since.... middle of last year, I've thought I've gotten really close to spencer and we hang out a lot playing Battlefield 3 and we play in the same section in band. We talk a lot of about useless crap, and some important things, but that's irrelevent. I just really think me and Spencer are good friends. Recently, there were a couple of guys sleeping over at another one of friends places, Ryan, and we were all in the hottub. Spencer started talking about his trip to a lake last year and the topic just came in to play. Jon, Spencer's family friend of 10-15 years talked about how he went to the lake with him for a couple years and didn't get to go. Then, Spencer invited Jon to go again this year. And that's where we start.
Sure, It made me kinda upset, but I got over that. I did think that maybe I had the possibility of going, but obviously not. I got over it. But it got me really thinking. I was never(at least in the past 6-7 years) in the position to where I was asked to go anywhere with anyone, vacation or not. I guess that's different just going over to hang at someone's house right? Not really.
Sure, I get invited to people's houses to spend the night, but, it's not very consistent. I talked about Ryan before, him and another one of my friends(and a couple other guys) are always around each others houses, sleep over or not. I even had a party thing 2 weeks ago to see if that'd spark any sort of invitation, but no. Nothing.
Am I just not liked? Sure, if they hated me I wouldn't be talking to them as it is which is a lot of my day, but, what if i'm their friend, but they just don't "like" me. Like "yea, we talk to Travis, he's in band and he sits with us at lunch". There really isn't anything about that really spawns any likability for me. Or it's the generic "You're a pretty fun guy to talk to". Sure, It makes me feel great, but, nothing comes from it.
I don't know. Maybe I'm just insecure and dumb. Maybe I really don't have anything to worry about, but I can't thinking that.
(backstory thoughts): I'm introverted, I've never had a lot of close friends, I'm starting to get a lot of stress.
Since last year, I've gained a considerable ammount of very good friends and I still do. No, they aren't doing drugs, and no, they aren't a "bad group". We're all in band and I've gotten very close to a lot of them. I really think I have great friends and I hope they think I'm great too?
This backstory may make me look jealous, but oh well. There is this one friend whos name is Spencer. Ever since.... middle of last year, I've thought I've gotten really close to spencer and we hang out a lot playing Battlefield 3 and we play in the same section in band. We talk a lot of about useless crap, and some important things, but that's irrelevent. I just really think me and Spencer are good friends. Recently, there were a couple of guys sleeping over at another one of friends places, Ryan, and we were all in the hottub. Spencer started talking about his trip to a lake last year and the topic just came in to play. Jon, Spencer's family friend of 10-15 years talked about how he went to the lake with him for a couple years and didn't get to go. Then, Spencer invited Jon to go again this year. And that's where we start.
Sure, It made me kinda upset, but I got over that. I did think that maybe I had the possibility of going, but obviously not. I got over it. But it got me really thinking. I was never(at least in the past 6-7 years) in the position to where I was asked to go anywhere with anyone, vacation or not. I guess that's different just going over to hang at someone's house right? Not really.
Sure, I get invited to people's houses to spend the night, but, it's not very consistent. I talked about Ryan before, him and another one of my friends(and a couple other guys) are always around each others houses, sleep over or not. I even had a party thing 2 weeks ago to see if that'd spark any sort of invitation, but no. Nothing.
Am I just not liked? Sure, if they hated me I wouldn't be talking to them as it is which is a lot of my day, but, what if i'm their friend, but they just don't "like" me. Like "yea, we talk to Travis, he's in band and he sits with us at lunch". There really isn't anything about that really spawns any likability for me. Or it's the generic "You're a pretty fun guy to talk to". Sure, It makes me feel great, but, nothing comes from it.
I don't know. Maybe I'm just insecure and dumb. Maybe I really don't have anything to worry about, but I can't thinking that.