Relapse.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

11 weeks today since I last cut. 11 weeks gone down the drain. Worse thing is that I dont even know why I did it. It was like I was on autopilot. Just gave in. I knew I wasnt strong enough.

I forgot how much it stings and bleeds on my thigh. Its been so long since ive done it there. I'm dreading telling my girlfriend, I know she wont be angry with me but she'll give me that look - the 'why didnt you talk to me' look.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day :/

Edit: I dont even feel guilty over doing it... I felt nothing. Everything was quiet - no thoughts, no (mental) pain, nothing just calm. Somethings ive needed for a long time...

[MrVanity]

You know your girlfriend wont get mad, so you know she understands relapse happen. Trust me i know the look you mean my friend gives me it all the time

Just try and get through tomorrow, after telling her just move on. If you dwell it will just be awkward.

Relapse happens :hug: