The feeling...

[LoveMe_HateMe]

I'm craving the feeling of it all... The blade, the blood, everything about cutting and its slowly starting to drive me insane. I don't know what to do about it... I want to give in, so badly. I just don't want to be the disappointment I know that I am.

I just want everything to 'normal' again. Is it bad that I don't feel 'normal' unless I cut? Is that bad? I want to feel something else than all this torment inside my head. I want to forget about it all for a while. I'm struggling to cope with everything again... I just can't talk about it. I have no one to talk to it about. I need the release. I want the release.

I'm just getting that feeling that I'm going to relapse... Soon. And I have no idea how to stop it.

[tundravortex]

yea its not normal...either u did something bad and didnt know,its eating you alive or you had a bad relationship with someone and u feel really bad,the only way i can say is go see a theropist or something if you want to feel normal come out and tell someone that might help

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

I'm not trying to encourage you but its not the end of the world if you relapse, it may feel that way but its not. Just listen to certain music to help, whatever works for you.

[janisj182]

you are way better than the blade

[HollowSoul]

I'm craving the feeling of it all... The blade, the blood, everything about cutting and its slowly starting to drive me insane. I don't know what to do about it... I want to give in, so badly. I just don't want to be the disappointment I know that I am.

I just want everything to 'normal' again. Is it bad that I don't feel 'normal' unless I cut? Is that bad? I want to feel something else than all this torment inside my head. I want to forget about it all for a while. I'm struggling to cope with everything again... I just can't talk about it. I have no one to talk to it about. I need the release. I want the release.

I'm just getting that feeling that I'm going to relapse... Soon. And I have no idea how to stop it.
If you relapse it sucks but it's not the apocalypse. I promised my best friend that I'd stop. Then I relapsed. I freaked and it made me want to cut even more. You should get help if you can.