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[Mortal Coil]

I'm sorry for wasting your time.
I'm worthless.
Every day is just binge and purge. I'm losing my voice. I'm cutting more and more but it's never deep enough. And my rape anniversary is coming up in a week.

I can't deal. I'm in a horrible place and I don't know what to do. I'm too depressed to even be afraid.

[Love.Hate]

:hug:

Sweetheart things are going to improve for you, you just need to get this anniversary out of the way, prove to yourself you're strong enough. As for the binge purge thing, I've been in that situation before, you know its no good.. you cannot keep it up forever, do you want your teeth to rot, you're going to lose your voice and get to the point where its painful to swallow, to even talk etc.. you need things to distract you, to keep your mind occupied, reading, writing, photography, music? anything, when you feel down don't turn straight to the blade or to the cupboard to binge.. sit down for 30 seconds, ask yourself do you really want this? is there anything to aim for that requires no scars etc. Girl you're so lovely and anyone should be grateful to have you in their lives. You are far from worthless <3

You have kept me alive and now its my turn to return the favour, I know you have it in you.. deep down you know you do too.

:cuddle:

:heart: I love you

p.s sorry I sound like a nag, you've probably heard it all before