so confused

[VictoriaGotaSecret]

I feel horrible. I betrayed some of the most supportive people I talk to. I told them I wouldn't, but I did. I said I won't do it again but I want to. I really hate the feeling but I just feel stuck on it. I am so depressed and wasn't this supposed to make me happy, well I'm not. I want to cut really badly and I can't do this life thing anymore

[stev]

Don't cut and don't say you can't do anything tell your friend how you really feel and how you feel bad for what you have done...I'm sure your friendship will heal again with time .

[dontfiguremeout]

First take a deep breath! You really shouldn't betray the people who support you the most even though you really want to because if too many people find out that you betray everyone who is close to you, then no one will even want to help you! So even though you want to do it so badly, try and think, but these people can help me though, why push them away! And far as cutting, take your depression in art, writing, ect.! Expressing your feelings through something creative will take out a lot of the depression, because you stored everything in your head and then when you draw, write, dance, ect. you'll be able to release it out of your mind for a while! Trust me it helps so much, and you don't have to hurt yourself too!