TaylrJ
January 17th, 2013, 04:37 PM
Hi, I am 15, a guy, and I have liked another guy for about 5 months now. Even though I've known of him for a years, I've only been friends with him for also 5 months. Everything started in August, as soon as a realized I liked him, I made sure to be friends with him. Really because I thought he was also gay, many people did. Ever since I first started talking to him, all our relationship did was grow. It grew into me coming to his house all the time, us texting each other every night, we even said that we loved each other. Because it did grow into me being in love with him. Others noticed to, us suddenly becoming best friends. People thought it was kinda weird for two guys to be spending so much time together and we were called gay and made fun of. It didn't bother us though, we still were friends. As soon as this relationship started, that's all I thought about. I constantly tried to make it better, and make it more exciting. I still try to do this.
The thing is, we've grown apart. It was just suddenly too. Like on day, we both decided we were bored around each other. Well, I didn't really decide this. He's the reason it all went downhill. I guess he was more bored around me. We never actually told each other all this though... But we both had a feeling. I don't know why he suddenly dreaded being around me, I guess he just matured, we had nothing in common either. The thing about is I couldn't accept it, I still can't. I can't understand how all these other relationships last for years and after just 5 months our friendship dies, suddenly. It's difficult, I mean I cry about it every night and then and get depressed... I even think about suicide sometimes. Thinking of all the memories me and him had together is the most depressing thing about it too.
Why would it end? Even though this has all happened is the past month, I still haven't really accepted it yet. Could you help? How do I move on? Do I even need to move one? Thanks..
The thing is, we've grown apart. It was just suddenly too. Like on day, we both decided we were bored around each other. Well, I didn't really decide this. He's the reason it all went downhill. I guess he was more bored around me. We never actually told each other all this though... But we both had a feeling. I don't know why he suddenly dreaded being around me, I guess he just matured, we had nothing in common either. The thing about is I couldn't accept it, I still can't. I can't understand how all these other relationships last for years and after just 5 months our friendship dies, suddenly. It's difficult, I mean I cry about it every night and then and get depressed... I even think about suicide sometimes. Thinking of all the memories me and him had together is the most depressing thing about it too.
Why would it end? Even though this has all happened is the past month, I still haven't really accepted it yet. Could you help? How do I move on? Do I even need to move one? Thanks..