Just keeps getting worse.

[LoveMe_HateMe]

Everything just seems to be going from bad to worse. I'm not sleeping well, well not really sleeping at all, lucky if I get to sleep before 2am. I feel so low all the time and I can't get past it. Everything is just so... I don't know I'm struggling.

The news today doesn't help. Having problems with my Grandad, he was diagnosed with Dementia last year, and he's going downhill and we were told he'd be going onto fast track to get into a nursing home. Only found out today that fast track means that he's probably only got 3 months to live. 3 months.

I don't know if I can deal with that. With everything else.

I'm trying everything to distract myself from everything. But it's not working. I want my blade.

[jayyy-lmao]

I know how you feel. I had problems sleeping for a long time. I'm so sorry about you grandad. Mine was in a nursing home too. He's in hospital now. He is going to die. I'm trying to stay strong and so should you. Try to come to terms with it before he dies. Otherwise it will be all the worse. Tell your friends. They will support you.