I wish to be dead.

[jemq]

Hi, my name is Britney, and well, I need someone to vent to beforeI go insane. Lets start with my life I weigh 250 pounds which causes bullying and teasing. Ofcourse you will say "go on a diet" but ive tried that many times and it never works for two reasons. One, im poor and we cant afford anything. Literally, all i have in my house right now is bread and ketchup. Two, everytime i start to get sad i give up on everything and just lay in bed and eat. Sounds hot huh. I know.

Another thing ive mentioned before, im poor. I live in a shitty hotel on the shitty side of town because its all my parents can afford. (Im 16) Im not allowes to get a job either, or go anywhere besides school. Parents rules, i cant go anywhere because im not trusted even though ive never done anything wrong.

Also about my parents, they suck. All they do is yell and complain. My dad cant talk to me he just yells and my mom calls me things like "A spoiled bitch" which is ironic saying i have nothing?

In general i just hate my life and wish to die, but im too chicken to do anything about it. Ive recently started to cut myself. I feel weird too, because when i cut myself it makes me feel like ive finally accomplished something right and it makes me happy.

But you know, thats just because im a fuckup.

[Lost in the Echo]

If you want to lose weight, just be as active as possible.
Doing things as simple as jumping jacks, and walking can help you lose weight.
If you're bullied, ignore it, and don't let it bother you.
Anyone who bullies a person because of their weight, is a low-life piece of shit.

As for the situation with your parents, I think you guys should see a therapist, or a counselor, so you guys can work on your problems together.

Also, if you're ever feeling depressed, or whatever, i'm available to talk to, and i'll help you anyway I can.

Good luck, and hang in there.
I hope things get better for you. :hug:

[CharlieHorse]

I bet you've heard this before, but please, please, please don't kill yourself, no matter what.
I wish that I could be there with you to help you through the tough time.
Is there any school counselor or therapist that you can talk to?
And welcome to vt, I see that this is your first post.
Everyone on here will listen and help. :)
We're all friends here :)

[stev]

Like may others have said don't kill your self there's so much in life to look forward to....there are people here who care and would love to hear your rants ....trust me life does get better I remember reading a quote "the darkest nights produce the brightest stars ". About your weight start exsirsing even if its 20mins a day just add a bit more time each day and make it a habbit .

[candabear17]

When I was 13, I weighed 260 lbs. I never went on a diet but I got really active with BMX, skating, and sports. I weigh 185 right now and still dont bother trying to lose weigh. I just enjoyed my life and did the things I liked doing and the rest came w time. As for your financial situation, you'll be on your own in a couple years and then you can decide how you want to live. Keep at it in school because that's what will get you money. Get involved in as many things as you can. After school clubs are a great way to be able to hang out with friends after school, stay out of the house for a little while, and some clubs can lead to college scholarships, especially if you're president. Find something other than cutting to take up your time because that's not something you want to start with. I like drawing. You can show people if you want but you dont have to. It doesn't matter how good it looks. Just draw whatever is on your mind. I've cut over 3 dozen times in the last week and I'll probably be resubmitted to the hospital (by choice) by the end of the week. You really don't want to go down that path. About losing weight, teenagers are pricks and theyll always find something wrong with you. If you like your body, don't worry about it. Just learn to love yourself and be happy :)