cutting

[bjl17]

Hi
my name is lindy and im new to this site. I started out a while ago punching myself or scratching without drawing blood. A few days ago i took a blade across my leg and it felt pretty good. I've been doing that for a couple of days and have about 25 cuts on my leg now ( leg cos noone will see). I think it's already starting to get worse tho cos i work in a shop and take in deliveries and while i was opening boxes and noone was looking i used the blade on my hands. I dont like doing this but it feels so good and after bad days its a release. I dont know what to do now can't really talk to anyone - got one friend who used to cut who knows but don't want to burden her and i would never tell my parents cos i'm so ashamed of it. I've been to the doctor about my depression before but it took so long to pluck up the courage and i cancelled a few appointments before actually going because i felt so stupid so i don't think i'll be going back about this. :(

[strongbad4500]

here's what i've been doing everytime i feel like cutting i take a caffiene pill and for an odd reason that normaly takes the urge away.

[bjl17]

well i dont know if that would help much. I feel like shit just now cos i just gave in again and moved from my leg to my arm something i really didnt want to end up doing. I don't know what to do now cos if i go to the doctor i'll probably cancel b4 i get there and ill feel really stupid about it. I dont know whats wrong with me but its getting harder and harder not to cut.

[grass]

man u triggerd me u sound like u really like it, usually ppl deny it and just say they do it cos there addicted at least ur honest so now u just gota wiegh up if the gd feelin is worth the bad consequence and if its not then wenever u wanna do it just u can honestly tell urfelf its not worth it

[bjl17]

it feels good to cut it helps i dont know why but its really hard to stop it. its sort of like an addiction. even if i manage to make it through a day without cutting i end up cutting at night. i hate myself

[BeautyFromPain]

Hi
my name is lindy and im new to this site. I started out a while ago punching myself or scratching without drawing blood. A few days ago i took a blade across my leg and it felt pretty good. I've been doing that for a couple of days and have about 25 cuts on my leg now ( leg cos noone will see). I think it's already starting to get worse tho cos i work in a shop and take in deliveries and while i was opening boxes and noone was looking i used the blade on my hands. I dont like doing this but it feels so good and after bad days its a release. I dont know what to do now can't really talk to anyone - got one friend who used to cut who knows but don't want to burden her and i would never tell my parents cos i'm so ashamed of it. I've been to the doctor about my depression before but it took so long to pluck up the courage and i cancelled a few appointments before actually going because i felt so stupid so i don't think i'll be going back about this. :(

you shouldnt be ashamed to talk to your parents about it. but if u just really cant then i think u should talk to ur friend.

[-_-rise-against-_-]

yeh...get a really cool hobby or sumthin to keep ypur mind off of it..could help