JustinPCGamer
January 15th, 2013, 03:59 PM
Well, so I am in a bit of an awkward position and I don't know what to do. During social studies class she asked me if I liked her. My response was "Yes, I think you're attractive and pretty." She then asked me out. I am having two big problems with the situation right now. Back in November of 2011 a close friend of mine went out with her. I remember she caused drama between other girls and started making lies up. I don't want that happening again. My friend broke up with her sometime in December of 2011 and they have been friends since. I have been friends with her for more than a year and never really thought about being in a relationship with her. In fact, I never had any plans to get a girlfriend until maybe senior year. This is my sophomore year. I really do think she is pretty, but I don't know if I like her. What if I go out with her and I don't like her? In social studies I made up a story saying that "I don't know if I am allowed to go out with girls, but I am 16 now and will ask my parents when I get home. I then will tell you their answer. If my parents say yes, then I will go out with you." I told that to her so I can buy sometime time to think, and also to go to my friend and ask him if the idea with us going out would be good with him.
Now its time for my second problem. This would be my first girlfriend, I never kissed a girl, hell I am still a virgin. I don't think I am in the best mental state to have a relationship. I can barely maintain my friendship with my two close friends. Now adding a girl, something bad will probably happen. Every morning before first period, I stalk girls. I learn about them and view them as objects. I also have a huge porn collection on my second computer. I have on computer dedicated to porn. Yes, I know I am a pervert but whatever. I can't picture myself watching porn when in a relationship. That's weird and I don't think it would feel right. I view girls as objects to lust after, I know that isn't good but I view them like that. Plus, girls seem to emotional and dramatic, over-reacting to every little thing. I can't stand the ass holes in my grade, a good 90% of my grade is immature. My peers intimidate the fuck out of me. I don't go out to parties or even outside for two reasons. One my peers, intimidate me last thing I need is to run into one of the immature ones. The second reason being that people get in trouble when they go out. To cope with this, I play computer games all day. It's not like any of my ass hole peers can come to my house in my basement and be there while I hide from them. After school of course and once I finish all my school work. I am really anti-social. I don't have any enemies though, in fact I am friendly to everyone in my grade, they think I am a good person. I just make no effort to see anyone outside of school; I don't want to. If I was to go out with her, that would in fact mean, going outside. Plus, that means I would be more involved in my grade. If I go out with her, that also means less time to play computer games, I want more time to play. I don't want that. What to do?
Now its time for my second problem. This would be my first girlfriend, I never kissed a girl, hell I am still a virgin. I don't think I am in the best mental state to have a relationship. I can barely maintain my friendship with my two close friends. Now adding a girl, something bad will probably happen. Every morning before first period, I stalk girls. I learn about them and view them as objects. I also have a huge porn collection on my second computer. I have on computer dedicated to porn. Yes, I know I am a pervert but whatever. I can't picture myself watching porn when in a relationship. That's weird and I don't think it would feel right. I view girls as objects to lust after, I know that isn't good but I view them like that. Plus, girls seem to emotional and dramatic, over-reacting to every little thing. I can't stand the ass holes in my grade, a good 90% of my grade is immature. My peers intimidate the fuck out of me. I don't go out to parties or even outside for two reasons. One my peers, intimidate me last thing I need is to run into one of the immature ones. The second reason being that people get in trouble when they go out. To cope with this, I play computer games all day. It's not like any of my ass hole peers can come to my house in my basement and be there while I hide from them. After school of course and once I finish all my school work. I am really anti-social. I don't have any enemies though, in fact I am friendly to everyone in my grade, they think I am a good person. I just make no effort to see anyone outside of school; I don't want to. If I was to go out with her, that would in fact mean, going outside. Plus, that means I would be more involved in my grade. If I go out with her, that also means less time to play computer games, I want more time to play. I don't want that. What to do?