i'm angry

[mynameisjane]

my grades are crashing, i hate my friends, i have no money, and i want him so bad but i dont think he likes me as more than a friend. and i hate myself for liking him because my mind says he's wrong for me and that would screw everything up but my heart says he'll make me happy. i want him so bad, but maybe its just my loneliness. i feel so alone. i just want someone to finally kiss me, tell me i'm pretty, and i can tell them my feelings and they'll tell me i'm not crazy. i want to find someone who understands me. i want someone who can make me happy. everyone else has found someone at one time or another. i'm never gonna find anyone.

just a rant.

[4IrishJustice]

If it's any consulation i have no friends to hate. I switched schools this year so i don't know anyone, and few that i've met are worth knowing. So anyway i know about the lonelyness. There's not much advice to be given, but i guess all we can do is keep truging through. and dont say things like you're never going to find anyone, because once you stop obsessing over that guy you think you like, you'll realize the right guy for you isn't beyond your reach.

[mynameisjane]

i walked 2 miles at 11:30 last night to his house. i didnt ring the bell or try to see him or anything, i just wanted to look at his house. just to be closer to him. i might be crazy. i dont know what i'd say if he caught me.

[thesphinx]

Alright well first of all he may not be the right person for you. so you shouldn't put yourself through this.
there will be a lot of boys and you will find the right one. you really not that old give it time. and in the meantime don't get to bent out of shape because this isn't working. if its not working its probably not going to be right.

[samfromsydney]

Consider calling a helpline sometime. They are trained to help people that feel sad or angry. Hope this helps