billiam183
January 12th, 2013, 11:07 PM
Kind of a jumbled mess of my feelings right now. If anyone has something to say, please dont hold back. Id actually like to talk because as you'll find, I cant talk to anyone about this.
So I've known no doubt I was attracted to males sexually and that I was by no means straight for some time. But iv only ever experienced physical attraction to a guy, not emotional. I've seen a lot of guys say things like this (Exp: I cannot see myself with a male). I've always felt this way until recently. The first guy I've ever had feelings for is now in my life. I can say that I have never felt this way for a guy. I know he has feelings for me too. But heres the thing. He is older than me, as in a legal adult + some and I have another year until it could be legal. That of coarse isnt stopping me. But our age and both of us not being out makes this all really sneaky and complicated. Also this is all so new to me and its hard to admit this to myself but I think im really falling for him. And maybe starting to. Love him. Because I've never felt like this im kinda scared of getting hurt. I dont easily grow feelings for someone so this isnt just some fling for me. Also, beacause of the secrecy, it sucks i cant tell anyone about him. I dont really know what im asking ( I guess im venting) but any advice or imput would be appreciated.
So I've known no doubt I was attracted to males sexually and that I was by no means straight for some time. But iv only ever experienced physical attraction to a guy, not emotional. I've seen a lot of guys say things like this (Exp: I cannot see myself with a male). I've always felt this way until recently. The first guy I've ever had feelings for is now in my life. I can say that I have never felt this way for a guy. I know he has feelings for me too. But heres the thing. He is older than me, as in a legal adult + some and I have another year until it could be legal. That of coarse isnt stopping me. But our age and both of us not being out makes this all really sneaky and complicated. Also this is all so new to me and its hard to admit this to myself but I think im really falling for him. And maybe starting to. Love him. Because I've never felt like this im kinda scared of getting hurt. I dont easily grow feelings for someone so this isnt just some fling for me. Also, beacause of the secrecy, it sucks i cant tell anyone about him. I dont really know what im asking ( I guess im venting) but any advice or imput would be appreciated.