asking for advice once more

[FullyAlive]

I haven't really been around much recently but i'm back to make another thread...

I'm not really sure what's wrong with me at the moment I just feel a bit disinterested at the moment. My friends will make plans with me or I'll be invited out or to a party and at the time I'll say yes be relatively happy about it but then I just seem to make an excuse and stay in by myself I know going out etc isn't for everyone but it was for me I always used to be out with my friends and stuff but now I just make every excuse possible to stay in to just drink alone or even just go to bed. I never really used to be like this, this is just the past couple of months, I have to force myself into going to mandatory events (birthdays etc) and even then I just seem to count the hours until I can leave. I really do miss my friends and it sounds silly if I miss them I should just go out with them right? But I always talk myself out of it and I just really don't know why I've become so antisocial.

I've also gotten back into my paranoia habits again and keep finding myself thinking that my friends hate me and that they're talking about me behind my back and they're just waiting for me to move away from the group. And I know that's all lies but its bothering me and I don't know why I've gotten back into this routine. I was sure I'd grown up and made myself better..

Any advice is welcome.

[Mynick]

I'm not use to give advices but i'll try my best.
It's possible that you feel disinterested because you are, somewhat, saturated with school or any activity? Some times that happens to me, just want to be alone and think about life. I just want to break daily routine and stuff.
As for the paranoia, the same happens to me. I (or in these case we) have low self esteem.
Sorry for the poor English, and bad structur. And again i'm not good giving advices.

[Fiction]

Okay first of all, is it possible that whatever is going on is something seasonal? Seasonal depression is obviously something that exists, did you find that this whole disinterested thing got worse as it turned into winter? Because obviously failure to enjoy things you used to is a symptom of depression? It's just a thought since you said it's only happened the last few months.

Another thought I had is that it could be the stress of exams? They're taking their toll on me at the moment and maybe it's exam stress getting you down and making you tired? Maybe after exams are finished you'll settle down a bit?

Just some suggestions, love you x

[FullyAlive]

I'm not use to give advices but i'll try my best.
It's possible that you feel disinterested because you are, somewhat, saturated with school or any activity? Some times that happens to me, just want to be alone and think about life. I just want to break daily routine and stuff.
As for the paranoia, the same happens to me. I (or in these case we) have low self esteem.
Sorry for the poor English, and bad structur. And again i'm not good giving advices.

I wouldn't say i'm saturated with life before I got into this mood I was having a great year I felt like I was finally getting somewhere with everything and now not so much, but thankyou for your thoughts :)

Okay first of all, is it possible that whatever is going on is something seasonal? Seasonal depression is obviously something that exists, did you find that this whole disinterested thing got worse as it turned into winter? Because obviously failure to enjoy things you used to is a symptom of depression? It's just a thought since you said it's only happened the last few months.

Another thought I had is that it could be the stress of exams? They're taking their toll on me at the moment and maybe it's exam stress getting you down and making you tired? Maybe after exams are finished you'll settle down a bit?

Just some suggestions, love you x

I tend to be a little lower in winter anyway I guess probably cause its so fucking cold, i'm not sure if I'd say it was seasonal though cause you'd think one of the many people i've seen would have picked it up :/

I have got many exams at the moment but I don't usually deal with exam stress this way but maybe it is that which would be nice cause i'm done on the 25th so if I could be a bit more involved at this point it would be good.

Thankyou, I love you too :heart: I really must talk to you more often again