Wanting to cut really bad right now..

[forever alone]

Well I've been trying to quit lately and I haven't been able to because of so much stuff going on. Right before Christmas break at our school I got into a big argument with one of my friends because she was doing drugs a lot and so we argued about that and we quit being friends because she got mad at me for it. This girl was my best friend she means the world to me and I am scared something really bad will happen to her and I am so worried about her I don't know what to do. During Christmas break I stayed to myself because my cousin was put in ICU and is in really bad condition so I haven't been up to talking to many people. Over Christmas break I lost 2 more friends but I did nothing wrong but they made me feel bad like I did something so horrible to them. I was so scared I was going to lose my boyfriend too and I cant lose him because now he's the only person I have left and I really need him. He's always the one I go to but right now me and him aren't talking much and it kills me because I always tend to screw everything up and I can't take losing my boyfriend. I've also been suicidal and really depressed lately too. I just really need help I want to get all my friends back and I don't want to feel like this anymore because I'm always feeling like crap I can't even walk through the school hallway without people cussing at me and saying what a horrible person I am and how I'm such an "emo freak" because people found out about my cuts. Will someone please help me I really want to cut really bad...:(

[tundravortex]

well one thing is for sure its not you its them because if there all doing drugs or atleast afew of them than all that dope is going to there head because they wanted you to do it to so there not your friend anymore but than your depression is going to your boyfriends head and making him feel guilty so he thinks its him,than when the word got out that you were cutting and making suicidal thoughts it made your friendship with every body else go to hell but the only way you can have all this stop is but not cutting and making suicidal thoughts,cutting and suicide just makes everything worse because i used to do that,i lost my girl because of that and half my friends but when i stopped i made new ones...so i suggest stop cutting and go to someone who has been there for you the whole time and open up,it might be hard or it might not but openning up is the best way to have everything else come back to normal

Well I've been trying to quit lately and I haven't been able to because of so much stuff going on. Right before Christmas break at our school I got into a big argument with one of my friends because she was doing drugs a lot and so we argued about that and we quit being friends because she got mad at me for it. This girl was my best friend she means the world to me and I am scared something really bad will happen to her and I am so worried about her I don't know what to do. During Christmas break I stayed to myself because my cousin was put in ICU and is in really bad condition so I haven't been up to talking to many people. Over Christmas break I lost 2 more friends but I did nothing wrong but they made me feel bad like I did something so horrible to them. I was so scared I was going to lose my boyfriend too and I cant lose him because now he's the only person I have left and I really need him. He's always the one I go to but right now me and him aren't talking much and it kills me because I always tend to screw everything up and I can't take losing my boyfriend. I've also been suicidal and really depressed lately too. I just really need help I want to get all my friends back and I don't want to feel like this anymore because I'm always feeling like crap I can't even walk through the school hallway without people cussing at me and saying what a horrible person I am and how I'm such an "emo freak" because people found out about my cuts. Will someone please help me I really want to cut really bad...:(

if you want to open up to me ill understand because i was in your spot once apon a time

Instead of posting consecutively, please use the 'edit' or 'multi quote' buttons. -StoppingTime

[forever alone]

Thanks it nice to know you've been there. My boyfriend was diagnosed with depression before we started dating. I was one of the reasons he actually got help because he was cutting really bad and I noticed them and started talking to him about it and me and him have always been close. Normally it is really hard for me to open up to people. I normally don't talk I just cut but I can try to talk.

[Twilly F. Sniper]

All I can say here is its their fault, and either drugs changed her persona or she's just trying to hurt somebody (mentally and likely physically)

[forever alone]

That's really all she wants to do is hurt someone. She's going to start being in my connections class and is sitting right beside me but she shouldn't bother me she got what she wanted me and my boyfriend broke up last night so she finally hurt me there's nothing else she can take from me...