Baltimore
January 8th, 2013, 07:41 PM
Whats up, VT? It's been several years since i've posted here, but I feel it is time for me to share something and also ask an open question for any of y'all to help me out with.
First, I'd like to give you guys a little background on myself:
I am a 17 year old male. I've always been very athletic and I have had no trouble socially, many view me as a sort of "alpha male" type, I'm fit and I pretty regularly hook up / have sex with girls.
I've had my friends on multiple occasions tell me they'd "do anything to be in my position" and similar things, and they sometimes get mad at me when I try to tell them I don't have it as easy as they think.
Given the way my life has gone socially I feel a constant need to uphold an image, not so much in the way that I feel the need to be a "tough guy" and whatnot but more that I couldn't be gay or feminine. I do find girls very attractive and I'm definitely not like hooking up with girls because pretending to be straight or something, but in 8th grade I was watching porn with one of my closest friends at the time and for whatever reason we started talking about if it would be weird if we did things together, he gave me the OK and I gave him my first handjob on that day.
We "fooled around" a few more and then later that year I was sleeping over his house and we were masturbating eachother when he asked how I felt about blowjobs and I said it was okay with me if it was okay with him and I proceeded to give him a BJ and it was different but I liked it. The next day he asked if I was gay I said no just curious and he said okay good this will just be between us. I was fine with that and all and we continued fooling around every once in a while, but it was clear that he was less into it than I was, and recently we've stopped talking.
This put me into a really tough spot. I was kind of into him but, although I guess I now identify as bisexual, I don't find myself attracted to the more "feminine" gay guys out there (not trying to stereotype, just my preference) and I liked him because he was also very muscular and had a man's physique. Thus, I haven't found any other people like him who I ended up getting involved with.
Basically, I've stuck to girls for a long time since then. However, I have another male friend who now lives in a different state who I've always found quite attractive and I've heard from many is gay or at least bi. I am going to be staying with him for a few days next month and I have been hoping something will happen there, but since neither of us have told eachother I don't know how I could suggest it to him or even if I might offend him if it weren't true. I can't decide if I should ask him now over the phone or over text or wait until we're sitting in the same room together, which could make things much more awkward if he didn't want to hook up.
Thoughts?
(I know this was a lot, thanks for reading to those who took the time to)
First, I'd like to give you guys a little background on myself:
I am a 17 year old male. I've always been very athletic and I have had no trouble socially, many view me as a sort of "alpha male" type, I'm fit and I pretty regularly hook up / have sex with girls.
I've had my friends on multiple occasions tell me they'd "do anything to be in my position" and similar things, and they sometimes get mad at me when I try to tell them I don't have it as easy as they think.
Given the way my life has gone socially I feel a constant need to uphold an image, not so much in the way that I feel the need to be a "tough guy" and whatnot but more that I couldn't be gay or feminine. I do find girls very attractive and I'm definitely not like hooking up with girls because pretending to be straight or something, but in 8th grade I was watching porn with one of my closest friends at the time and for whatever reason we started talking about if it would be weird if we did things together, he gave me the OK and I gave him my first handjob on that day.
We "fooled around" a few more and then later that year I was sleeping over his house and we were masturbating eachother when he asked how I felt about blowjobs and I said it was okay with me if it was okay with him and I proceeded to give him a BJ and it was different but I liked it. The next day he asked if I was gay I said no just curious and he said okay good this will just be between us. I was fine with that and all and we continued fooling around every once in a while, but it was clear that he was less into it than I was, and recently we've stopped talking.
This put me into a really tough spot. I was kind of into him but, although I guess I now identify as bisexual, I don't find myself attracted to the more "feminine" gay guys out there (not trying to stereotype, just my preference) and I liked him because he was also very muscular and had a man's physique. Thus, I haven't found any other people like him who I ended up getting involved with.
Basically, I've stuck to girls for a long time since then. However, I have another male friend who now lives in a different state who I've always found quite attractive and I've heard from many is gay or at least bi. I am going to be staying with him for a few days next month and I have been hoping something will happen there, but since neither of us have told eachother I don't know how I could suggest it to him or even if I might offend him if it weren't true. I can't decide if I should ask him now over the phone or over text or wait until we're sitting in the same room together, which could make things much more awkward if he didn't want to hook up.
Thoughts?
(I know this was a lot, thanks for reading to those who took the time to)