It's all going to end

[Aceso]

Where do I start really? I fucked up. Big time.

Had to go into hospital again today for my diabetes. They don't know how, or why, but my body becomes immune to insulin once it passes a certain threshold of blood sugar and ketones.
They've already told me that my blood pressure is rising, my eyes are becoming more damaged and my heartbeat has changed as a result, my body is slowly dying and the fucked up thing is I'm almost glad.

Today they told me my kidneys are going, and I'm in the early stages of diabetic kidney disease/renal failure. They're sending me to a specialist to see if there's any chance of preventing it progressing.

I'm fifteen years old and my body is giving up on me. There are times where I've given up trying and times where I've given it my all, and I wish I could start again to show myself how it's going to end. I don't even know if I'm scared or not right now, I just feel completely numb. It's like I've accepted that whatever happens, because I don't see how I can fight anymore.
I give up, I'm done.

[tundravortex]

dont give up just because your going though a bad time right now,just keep going and see what the results are you might befine when its all over or bad things could happen,it could go either way but dont give...giving up just means your weak and powerless,so if you want to gve up than pull the plug but i sugest keep going because you may never know what will happen

[Beast977]

Stay positive, Please stay positive. I'm mom has cancer and that all she can do is be Positive. You can do it and even if you think it the end, live life to the fullest