Everything is falling apart

[Extreme586]

Freshman year of high school was great, I met a guy who literally made my world and the best part was I got to sit next to him in a class all day. We never really had a conversation but he would do cute things to make me smile.

Sophomore year I had no classes with him which had me in a dark depressed place for most of the year. Until I realized how lucky I was to have a cute boy in my class who I have liked most of middle school. We even had some pretty curious things happen between us in that class.

Now it's my Junior year of high school. It's almost the end of the first semester, with neither of them in any of my classes and almost no reason what so ever for any kind of interaction between me and them.

I've never been too a football game or school dance. Prom is this year but i doubt i will attend. I consider myself socially awkward. Almost all of my free time isn't spent with friends or even family, but rather on World of Warcraft where I can find the occasional feeling of worth. Obviously I have never been to any party's either as I only have a few friends, and I don't even hang out with them outside or inside school (besides classes). I go to the library every day skipping lunch entirely just to avoid the awkwardness between myself and others.

I just need advice. Any advice at all whether its on my crush dilemma or just my life in general and how it's spiraling downward and caving in on me. I feel lost right now how do I find happiness again in my life? If you have any relevant personal experiences I would love to here them as well.

[ReginaGeorge]

Two words: social media. It is the devil, but it has a lot of advantages. There is a very high likelihood those boys have Facebook, if you don't have one and them on it already. If you don't, make one and scoop them out. Chat on there. After you get comfortable, say hey when you walk past them at school, even if you don't have classes, take an extra long lap to see them. If you don't have a mobile phone, invest in a cheap prepaid one, and grab all your friends numbers and just send them a text every now and then. "hey, man. how's it going?", "how's your weekend", "did you see *this* movie?".

Think of the person who you are closest too, or at least the most comfortable, and invite to your house for an afternoon. Play your games, or just chill, eat, hang out, talk. Also just spend a little less time watching TV, or playing games, and just go outside. These things are causing isolation and that's not healthy. It feeds depression, and anti-social tendencies. Go to the local shops and buy a bottle of soft-drink. Sit in the back yard and text one of those friends, call them even. Just getting away from the TV and computer helps you feel better. Trust me, I know. Don't stop playing these games though, just play them a little less.

Next time you have family over, pop your head out and say hi, sit with them, talk, or just listen for a little bit. If your Mum invites you out, just go out. Go for a drive. Just get out of the house. It really helps. It really does.

[Extreme586]

Thanks for the help I will try getting out more. I have both of them on facebook, tried sending one a message once to see what they had been up to lately and what not but never got a reply so I feel kind of weird about it. I guess I will just try to become a more social person people feel comfortable around and maybe one of them will come to me. Worth a shot I guess.

[sieg]

jess pretty much covered all of it very effectively, you just gotta get away every once in a while. honestly, i sued to stay inside and play WoW all day everyday besides school. god it was fun, but my friends would seriously have to walk up to my door unanounced to get me to even see the sunlight. upon retrospect, it was awful and it's good your seeing this yourself. long-story short, one of those friends got me into airsofting and i never really looked back. i'll play some videogames here and there, but it's mostly just hanging out with friends and extracurriculars which is lots of fun. just start slowly, it's scary coming out of that buble for the first time and if you do it too fast you'll miss out. Jess also made it a point to say dont give up yourr games entirely if you don't want to. don't feel obligated to either, just try talking to some people a little more often and see what becomes of it. happy huntin dude.

[Gandalf]

Freshman year of high school was great, I met a guy who literally made my world and the best part was I got to sit next to him in a class all day. We never really had a conversation but he would do cute things to make me smile.

Sophomore year I had no classes with him which had me in a dark depressed place for most of the year. Until I realized how lucky I was to have a cute boy in my class who I have liked most of middle school. We even had some pretty curious things happen between us in that class.

Now it's my Junior year of high school. It's almost the end of the first semester, with neither of them in any of my classes and almost no reason what so ever for any kind of interaction between me and them.

I've never been too a football game or school dance. Prom is this year but i doubt i will attend. I consider myself socially awkward. Almost all of my free time isn't spent with friends or even family, but rather on World of Warcraft where I can find the occasional feeling of worth. Obviously I have never been to any party's either as I only have a few friends, and I don't even hang out with them outside or inside school (besides classes). I go to the library every day skipping lunch entirely just to avoid the awkwardness between myself and others.

I just need advice. Any advice at all whether its on my crush dilemma or just my life in general and how it's spiraling downward and caving in on me. I feel lost right now how do I find happiness again in my life? If you have any relevant personal experiences I would love to here them as well.


I think that you would probably benefit as uncomfortably as it is, from more social interaction, I'm not the most socially apt.

With this in mind, it would be worth generally speaking to people more, perhaps you look to a new hobby or perhaps those who use the library, I know it is a quiet area, (which seems to be to your preferance) but the benefit of them is that they are used generally by interesting individuals (or so the cliches tell us) who may share similar interests.

I empathise entirely with not having a fulfilling social life, I would recommend trying to identify what activities and situations you are comfortable with and those specifically you aren't.
If you could come up with a possible reason then it is possible you can change how you are.- This your decision.

With regard to your depression, may I just recommend you just fill your life with the things you enjoy doing and try to look for the hapiness where ever you can find it. Hope I've helped :)

[Twilly F. Sniper]

Social media, the absolute manifestation of corrupt lies.

Also, just because your socially awkward doesn't mean you cant use FB! (I did at one point, now I have an account thats never logged into)

Also, what you described was exactly how it was for me in middle school. Almost died, no joke. One thing I learned from that is: sometimes the closest of friends and family can turn into the worst of enemies,and arent always trustable. Advice here: gullibility is an inferior trait that is especially bad in your position.