I am progessivly going insane

[crazydude12]

For the past year and a half i've been having mental problems. It started with
anxiety, then depression, then disassociation. I always feel light headed, time seems to blur, I can't pay attention to anything which is causing me to fail school, music constantly plays in my head and I cant make it stop unless I play music.
But worst of all I am very emotionally numb and socially withdrawn. I've spent the entire christmas break in my room, and do not want to leave even if a friend invites me out, I just want to stay in my room and I want to stay away from people. And over the break I have gotten worse and I think it may be the isolation but I just have no motivation to do anything. The only thing that relieves my symtoms is hard liquor, but fortunately I can't get enough supply to become an addict. But what I am wondering is is anyone having the same problem as me? If so is there anything i can do to get better?

[ackmedsgirl666]

i had a problem similar to this growing up
being shipped around from group home to group home i was often very unsociable and would prefer staying in my room away from the other kids because i figured the more time i spent in my room the less time i would have to spend with those other terrible kids and the faster time would pass before i would move.. i lived there for 2 months short of a year before i got shipped to another home... and during that time my anixety got bad... and i become rebellious... i would disobey all the rules thus they would punish me and out me in my room but i didnt like being in my room unless i wanted to be... and during that time i self harmed alot and got really depressed and lonely and cried alot and there was times i wanted to die....how did i cope with it...

well to be honest i knew i had to eventually re-associate myself with the real world so i tried to wean myself from my bedroom more and more... it was very ahrd because whenever i did come out someone would trigger me and back i went again and this happened over and over... and it got worse once i was placed in my new group home.... and at this new place i was alllowed to go out.... but not right away i had to earn their trust first... and i was somewhat happy because i was back in a regular highschool and i made some new friends... but that anxiety was always there..

i eventually pushed pat it. i stopped listening to my inner voices and i made myself get better... and here i am now... i hate being in my room and i wish i could spend more time outside but there is nothing to do in my neighborhood. all you gotta do it try and focuz on something positive or something you could look forward to that would make you happy. dont ever turn to drugs or alcohol as a safe haven because those can lead into terrible addictions. just try and find something that makes you happy. try and make new friends... talk to someone on here you trust... go out in the world and idk what you have to do in your area but maybe tryand look for some self help groups someone who can help you battle this"illness" ill say illness because i guess thats the best way to describe it... try really hard to overcome this problem. anything is possible... i did it and successfully you just need a bit of a push.. good luck and if you need to talk you can visitor message me.