I'm depressed and have major anxiety

[JohnDoe429]

I am 17 year old guy, and a senior in high school. I think I suffer from depression and anxiety. As a result I am basically a lazy bum who has done nothing with his life so far.

I take only average level courses at school and just coast through school. I don't have a job even though I think I should like all the other kids in my grade but I am way to nervous to go out in the public. I don't even have my driver's license. I started driver's ed but I got too stressed and nervous on the road that I haven't driven a car since last summer. So now I am forced to rely on my parents to bring me places and I feel bad...I know they are ashamed of me. Especially my dad.

At school I barely have any friends and those that I do have...have turned into major a**holes this year...for some reason.

I sit alone at school all day and barely talk to anyone. Then I come home and sit in my room for the rest of the night.

Last November I got suspended from school for reasons I am not going to elaborate on. I also had to visit the police. I have never had any discipline problems in my life. Needless to say, it has pretty much been the worst part of my life.

I have no idea what I am going to do with my life. Luckily I have accomplished one thing, I was accepted to a community college. However, I still do not know what I want to be when I grow up.

After I got suspended I had to go to the doctor and I was prescribed Zoloft. I don't think it's working. It just makes me lose my appetite and makes me feel funny...I feel like everything is so insignificant. It is weird and I hate it.

My parents just want me to be a normal kid, get a job, drive my own car, etc. I know I let them down and myself down.

Pretty soon I will be graduating and I will be forced to out into the world...I'm scared.

[KenobiGirl93]

Have you thought about counseling? Seeing a counselor can help you with your depression and anxiety feelings.
And a counselor can also help you figure out what you actually have interests in that could possibly sustain you for life.
I think it's great that you got accepted to the community college. If you get the courage to go after your driver's license, maybe it will show your parents that you're not totally lazy and you want to take steps to better your future. If you get your license, maybe you could live at home and commute to the college.
Or, talk to your parents about your future.
But mainly, try to see a counselor. You can make an appointment with your family doctor and get assessed for depression and anxiety, too. That might be a good place to start.
:)