confusion

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the past few months I haven't been feeling good. I don't think it's particularly because of one thing. It's strange and hard to describe but I've felt very empty recently an I've been thinking to much, so I come up with these theories as for why I feel like this and then I will start to panic and breathe to fast. To be honest nothing bad as ever really happened to me which adds to the confusion. although when I start thinking to much I usually come to the same conclusion that I'm not comfortable with who I am and I always end having a different version of myself with other people that I no longer really know who I am. It's strange because some days I will wake up and feel fine then hours later I will feel like shit again, this normally happens when I'm left to myself because I start thinking again so when I go to bed I usually end up watching films or reading till the early hours of the morning although I normally end up watching or reading perks of being a wallflower and then I start thinking again because I will start relating myself to the characters. sometimes I think I start thinking so i become annoyed and confused to give myself a purpose and it makes me feel very fake and then this also adds to everything else and it's starting to become a bit too much.

[Noirtier]

I would recommend seeing a counselor, like the one at your school, and talking to them about this. I know how hard it is, feeling the confusion, the depression, the emptiness. To be honest, though, you're overthinking things too, which isn't helping your situation at all. By thinking about it day in and day out, trying to figure out why you feel this way, to the point that you can't even get proper sleep because you can't stop thinking about it--that's not healthy either. A counselor can help you more than we can, help you figure out why you feel this way and what you can do to fix it. For your own sake, please try getting on a healthy sleep schedule as well--when you go to bed, don't leave the tv on or read until the early hours of the morning--begin to try and get some sleep. You need about 8 hours a night, and while I may be a hypocrite for saying it because I don't usually get that much, I can say that the more sleep you get, the better your mental capacity/function usually is. You may still feel depressed, but the confusion may go away a bit, and you may be able to think more clearly. I would also recommend writing or doing art to try and get your feelings out in a healthy manner, which can help immensely when you feel down like this. Again, I would advise you to talk to your school counselor about this too, and to get some sleep, and if you ever need to talk, well, we're all here to help and support you hun!

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Thanks. I`ve been thinking about speaking to my English teacher I`m probably more comfortable with her