I'm an idiot

[HeartCoreHannah]

On New Year's Eve a friend and I got drunk. We were having a pretty decent time until I decided to call Michael, who I haven't talked to in months. He was really annoyed that I called him in the first place and calling him drunk just made it all worse. When I asked him what he was doing, he responded with, "Umm, trying to go to sleep with my fiancee." FIANCEE. Like, are you kidding me? It's only been six months since we've been completely out of each other's lives. I still love him, obviously. But it's just so ridiculous. If I even talked to other guys he would freak out, even when we weren't dating.
Anyways, it really ruined my night. I cried and have dwelled on it since. It's silly that I even care, I know. We both have our own lives. I'm even talking to someone now. I know we are never going to be together again, but the fact he's engaged makes it real for me. I just don't know how to accept it. This is so unbearably hard for me. He was my rock for so many years, I can't seem to let all that go. Everthing he knows about me, everything I know about him.. Why is it so easy for him to just throw it all away? Did I really not mean anything to him? Was I THAT bad of a girlfriend and screwed everything up?

I just have so many questions for him that will now never be answered.

[Lost in the Echo]

Well, if you guys were together for so long, then he probably did and still does have feelings for you.

You have to face reality though, it's over between you 2.
You have to move on and forget about him.
Being upset and crying over him won't do you any good.
The best thing to do is just move on.
What's done is done, you can't do anything about it now.

[HeartCoreHannah]

Well, if you guys were together for so long, then he probably did and still does have feelings for you.

You have to face reality though, it's over between you 2.
You have to move on and forget about him.
Being upset and crying over him won't do you any good.
The best thing to do is just move on.
What's done is done, you can't do anything about it now.

I know. It's just hard. Crying is just making me feel worse, but I can't stop thinking about it. I want him to be happy and have the best things out of life, but I would prefer it all would be with me. Is that selfish?

[Lost in the Echo]

I know. It's just hard. Crying is just making me feel worse, but I can't stop thinking about it. I want him to be happy and have the best things out of life, but I would prefer it all would be with me. Is that selfish?

In a way it is selfish, in a way it's not.
There isn't really much you can do at this point though.
He has a fiance, and it appears that he's over you.

Just move on with your life, you can't be in a relationship with him if he doesn't feel the same way about you, as you do him.
It's over between you guys, you have to realize that.

What about that other guy you said you were talking to?
Maybe pursue a relationship with him?

[HeartCoreHannah]

In a way it is selfish, in a way it's not.
There isn't really much you can do at this point though.
He has a fiance, and it appears that he's over you.

Just move on with your life, you can't be in a relationship with him if he doesn't feel the same way about you, as you do him.
It's over between you guys, you have to realize that.

What about that other guy you said you were talking to?
Maybe pursue a relationship with him?

I agree with everything you so, and I know it's over. Just have to accept it.

Um, we've been talking for about a month now. He's really sweet and has an awesome personality. I can definitely see us being in a relationship. He asked me about a week and a half ago to be his girlfriend, but I thought it was way too soon, so I suggested we continued to talk and hangout to see how things went. He agreed and everything has been really good so far.
He doesn't know about me calling Michael and I can't decide whether I want to tell him. I'm afraid if I do, it will mess everything up for us in the future, if we do end up being together.

[Lost in the Echo]

I agree with everything you so, and I know it's over. Just have to accept it.

Um, we've been talking for about a month now. He's really sweet and has an awesome personality. I can definitely see us being in a relationship. He asked me about a week and a half ago to be his girlfriend, but I thought it was way too soon, so I suggested we continued to talk and hangout to see how things went. He agreed and everything has been really good so far.
He doesn't know about me calling Michael and I can't decide whether I want to tell him. I'm afraid if I do, it will mess everything up for us in the future, if we do end up being together.

Yeah, I don't think you should tell him, since you and this guy aren't technically in a relationship.
You should probably stop calling your ex-boyfriend though, if you really do want a relationship with this other guy.

Good luck. :)

[HeartCoreHannah]

Yeah, I don't think you should tell him, since you and this guy aren't technically in a relationship.
You should probably stop calling your ex-boyfriend though, if you really do want a relationship with this other guy.

Good luck. :)

I've actually already deleted his number, so I won't be calling him anytime soon.
But thanks for the help, I appreciate it.
:)