I Want to Cut Again

[xXoblivionXx]

I've never felt this depressed before. I don't see the point of making it through the day anymore. I want to cut, I want to feel something. the numbers don't matter to me anymore. I don't care that I'm on day 95. I want to be at day 0, I want to feel something again.

[CharlieHorse]

Me too, but scars scare me and I get terrible nightmares :(

[ackmedsgirl666]

both of you.. you both have alot to live for
so what we make mistakes and were not happy with them and then we let them drag us down... well we all need to eventually learn to move past them... now both of you guys idk you that well but i have seen you guys post alot about suicide/cutting and well just know i am here to help you get outside of the darkness and into the light... where theres light there is happiness and success and darkness well we dont need to get into that.... please dont cut yourself.. its the worst way of self punishment/hatred out there and if anything were to happen to either of you i would be quite upset, try talking to someone about whats troubling you and try and get help.. your on day 95... keep it up dont bail now and screw up because if you end up caving i can gurantee that later on you will feel 10x shittier for giving in and then you will probably end up cutting again which isnt good... you gotta try and be happy make the most of things... just keep your head up and please please try to avoid cutting..

[xXoblivionXx]

both of you.. you both have alot to live for
so what we make mistakes and were not happy with them and then we let them drag us down... well we all need to eventually learn to move past them... now both of you guys idk you that well but i have seen you guys post alot about suicide/cutting and well just know i am here to help you get outside of the darkness and into the light... where theres light there is happiness and success and darkness well we dont need to get into that.... please dont cut yourself.. its the worst way of self punishment/hatred out there and if anything were to happen to either of you i would be quite upset, try talking to someone about whats troubling you and try and get help.. your on day 95... keep it up dont bail now and screw up because if you end up caving i can gurantee that later on you will feel 10x shittier for giving in and then you will probably end up cutting again which isnt good... you gotta try and be happy make the most of things... just keep your head up and please please try to avoid cutting..

I don't see the point of trying :( i've tried, I've fucking tried so many times. it doesn't get better

[ackmedsgirl666]

Well then If you see no end to this perhaps you should seek councelling or therapy
I really don't want to see you throw away your progress

[Noirtier]

I've never felt this depressed before. I don't see the point of making it through the day anymore. I want to cut, I want to feel something. the numbers don't matter to me anymore. I don't care that I'm on day 95. I want to be at day 0, I want to feel something again.

I know how you feel. I've been there, I've been to the place where you've made it so far and it feels like the numbers mean nothing. Like not self harming is just worthless. Where you want to feel the relief again... But hun, I failed, and I can tell you, that it's not worth the relapse, it's really not. Try writing or drawing, do some art or talk to a friend. Distract your mind from the urges, do whatever you can so that you don't think about it. You've done such an amazing job, making it to 95 days! Think, you're so close to 100, and I know you can do it! If you ever need to talk, you know that I'm here for you, and I'm always willing to give advice and to listen. I know things have been rough for you lately, but I have faith in you, that you can make it. We're always here to support and help you regardless of what happens too hun, you know we are. :hug3: You can do it!

[xXJust Jump ItXx]

I've never felt this depressed before. I don't see the point of making it through the day anymore. I want to cut, I want to feel something. the numbers don't matter to me anymore. I don't care that I'm on day 95. I want to be at day 0, I want to feel something again.

I dont know what to say, but I wanna cut too soo bad. I cant, I cant for my girlfriend and myself to get better. Just please dont cut. :(

[Justsmilechloe]

I haven't cut for 7 months and something bad just happened and my life is falling apart. I want to cut again. I new someone to talk to I'm so alone. Please help.

[Love.Hate]

It may feel like it'll never get better, but how do you know if you dont give it a change. 95 days is incredible, im jealous cause i've never quite hit that 100.. you can beatthese demons, you just have to push through it. Write yourself a list of reasons as to why you want to stop, that'll give you some motivation. At the end of the day what is cutting yourself going to solve? you'll feel worse because you ruined your amazing streak without, you'll gain new scars and the satisfaction will wear off pretty quickly.

cuddles :hug:

[EllieS.]

I was in the same case, a month ago. It would have done one year without cutting if I did not cut. But I did, just because I wanted to feel good for a while. And after, even now, I feel so stupid for doing this. I promised so many friends that I would never cut me again but I broke my promises. Today I regret so much.
So just try to resist for a while, think about how you'll feel if you succeed this, you'll feel so proud of you for beeing strong like that !

If anybody need to talk, I'm here for you !

[missfortune]

Try find things that make you happy, like when feel I like I have nothing to live for I play with my dogs and cats because I know they love me and I watch TV because it makes me laugh(I recommend watching south park, the big bang theory and other really funny movies you know) and I watch funny youtube videos of people falling, pranks and people getting scared.

[Worthless]

Some days all I can do is think about killing myself. I don't know if I've experienced what you have but all I know is life is fucking unpredictable and the little unexpected things can make life worth living. When I'm super depressed I do a bunch of drugs and it usually makes me forget. Honestly, doing drugs to counter depression isn't the best idea but I think it's better than cutting.

[EllieS.]

I know, but honestly, right now, I think nothing in the world would feel better than cutting. That's the thing, I never did it to hurt myself, not really. I enjoy how it feels. It makes me feel GOOD.

I know exactly how you feel cause I did exactly the same : when I cut me, it was not to hurt me but to feel relief, to feel good because you forget all your problems for a while. But you remember these problems just after and then it's worse, you know.
You should try to find another way to be good. Me, I play guitar, I listen to music, I read, I draw, I write, I do anything that can make me forget everything or focus on something so I don't think. You just need to find THE thing which will make you feel the same way than cutting but which didn't hurt.
I'm here if you need help, if you need to talk or whatever.

[AkuRokuStalker]

just stay strong bro u do not want to start up again